Sunday, November 20, 2011

i have big problem balancing between family and work
this is so tough
i have a perception in Islam, we are responsible to balance everything in our life.
between dunia and akhirat...
betwwen family and career
i have come to a point where i need to choose where am i heading in my career
do i stay and spend less time with my kids and travel the world looking for business
or do i go find a desk job which i may not like so much but will give me more time with my kids.
so, i asked myself, what is the purpose of my life.
snd recently i found that my purpose on this earth is to worship Allah
i can worship Allah and have my career
but what about my family?
think i really have to prioratize my life. which is more important?
when i passed away, the ones that will remember and hopefully will pray for me is my kids. so, they are my priority... i need to guide them...
i think i kinda know waht to do now.... ermmm.... i like what i do... damnnnnn
i have to keep remind myself... there's so much that i need to improve about myself... masyaAllah....
it is a never ending struggle of the heart....may Allah never stop giving me guidance on what is best...
last few days was listening to the translation of "Al-Humaza"
MasyaAllah.... for me it is a common knowledge that we should not mengumpat or talk bad about people... but after listening to this surah translation, it really open my eyes and heart how bad this is
for years, i have been talking bad behind and in front of people. Allah really angry at this kind of people. SubhanAllah... may Allah forgive my shortcomings
it is indeed much easier said than done. i have to always consciously remember not to talk bad about people behind their back or in front of them. i still remember there was a line in Quran that mentioned about how we were given lips so that we may control our tongue. MasyaAllah...

in my line of work, this is really really hard to do. sometimes they make me angry, was being inefficeint and i just lost it. it will make me feel very bad for yelling at the person coz when it happens, normally i do it in front of people. and Allah does not approve of such behavior.

as hard as it is, i will need to do this... i must stop talking bad about people behind their back or yell at them or even look at them condensingly. MasyaAllah... besar nyer la dosa aku ni....

marilah kita sama2 berusaha ke arah itu..