Monday, December 31, 2007

tomorrow i will be officially 28 yrs old
reaching the big 3 O....
wow... i'm a mom now
nasib baik anak aku nyer tulang kuat
entah camner la aku handle dia. pakai angkat jer kdg2
hopefully tak tersalah urat or anthing
2007 is the most professionally-unproductive year and a very family-productive..
this year alone, on top of my 15 days annual leave, i took 7 days marriage leave, 2 weeks MC and 60 days of maternity leave..
got married and got a son.
so much is happening in 2007. definitely a year that i will not forget

Friday, December 14, 2007

taking care of my newborn is really stressing me out
everyday around 5-6pm i get very2 stressed, hungry, tired and angry and just want to yell at people. my plan to change my son's habit on sleeping in a hammock also not working very well
for days, i tried to lay him on a bed and an hour later he's awake. so, he wakes up crying.... demanding nipple to get back to sleep. he doesnt want artificial nipple. so.. my nipple get sore from too frequent suckling.
kenapala aku ikut ckp mak aku suruh letak baby dalam buai, i should just let him cry and try to put him to sleep on the bed. skrg ni aku tak tau camner nak tidurkan anak aku kat rumah mak mentua krg
dahla bilik kecik giler. aku suruh pindah bilik adik dia yg bsr skit taknak. suruh pindah rumah taknak.. kenapa la aku jerrrr yg kena mengalah. krg aku geram aku pindah jer duk rumah sendiri. sewa sendiri2... kalau laki aku sukaaaaa sgt duk rumah mak dia tu
arrggghhhhh tension nyer
my mom also not helping. x bole buat tu la, mandi kena pukul 5 ptg jugak. kena pakai bengkungla, maghrib kena pangku baby la... mcm2 la... rimass.. biarla aku buat apa yg aku nak. tension tul. kenapa suma ni men"tension"kan aku ni????
dahla anak aku ni asyik melalak jer. baru bangun tido, dah termuntah2 minum susu, dah tukar diaper, pun nangis jugak. sakit kepala aku. macam ni bole ke aku handle sorg lagi? i thought pregnancy is difficult enough. it took me about 4-5 mths to finally accept the fact that i'm pregnant and about to become a mom soon. i'm 27 years old and i should be ready. most people already have 2-3 kids by this age. laki aku taula pulak tak selesa duk rumah mentua. dia ingat aku ni seronok sgt duk rumah mak dia... baik aku stop sblm keluar benda2 lain aku nak complain

Ya Allah, berilah aku kekuatan untuk mengharungi cubaan ini.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

ada baby ni mmg betul2 memenatkan
kdg2 aku cuma dapat tido 3 jam jer sehari...
bila nak lelap jer dia jaga
pastu kena susukan, tukar diaper, burp kan... kalau tak, muntah2
nasib baik ada buai. tapi aku nak dia stop guna buai. so, gonna try my very best to change his habit. skrg ni try slow2 tidokan dia tanpa buai
aku rasa it's a great accomplishment kalau aku berjaya biar dia tido atas tilam
dulu boleh. tapi since dia tido dalam buai ni
kalau letak kat atas tilam jer sure bangun
tapi senang skit nak tido kan kalau dalam buai
takper, aku masih ada dalam 1 bulan lagi nak try change all this
with my strong will, i'm confident i can do it
tapi kalau anak aku ni strong willed jugak susah la
jadi contest of will la pulak