lately i keep thinking of the "what if"s of my life...
it seems that there a lot of points in my life that if i take a different route, my life can be completely different from what it is now.
1. what if i left ATPN and join one of the the MRSM and become just an ordinary student there and will not get a best student... will i get the opportunity to even go to the states?
2. what if i turned down the scholarship offer to go to the states, will i ever meet matde?
3. what if i marry matde in the states? will he still flunked out of college?
4. what if i dont force matde to come back to malaysia. will he ever comes back? will we still be together?
i guess Allah works in a mysterious ways... there were times when we have to make decisions and we dont know what will be the outcome. we just have to make out of the best at the time. even though later we found that it may not be the perfect one.
there were so many things that can make a couple break, and at the same time there's also many things that can make it work. i find it funny sometimes how different both of us are. during mealtime, if we are having ikan, he will eat the isi, i will finish off the tulang. kalau makan tom yam i will eat the ketam, he will eat the udang. things are just perfect that way. we both like books and movies but different genre...
in a way, i think i have found my soul mate. someone that completes me. i hope my friends also will find it too. dont concentrate too much on the differences and faults. embrace of what who our partners are and try to be happy for him for whatever he is... even then i always scolded matde for no reason. that's just who i am and he will just let it be as long as it is not over the line... because that is just how he is...
i pray that both of us will live happily until the end of our lives...
somehow, i feel so sentimental today... is it because "nur kasih"????