it's thursday, and as usual... malam tadi, aku tido awal...that means, miss 3 episodes of CSI Miami three weeks in a row... see.. how malaysia has changed my life, kalau kat us, mimpi la aku nak tgk citer2 camtu... sure aku tgk comedies jer.. i really miss that 70's show and friends... isk.. isk...

since aku tido awal... aku pun bangun awal... 3.38 pagi... then mengelamun... pastu ntah camner, aku terpk pasal anak2 yg kena halau dari rumah... aku rasa mak bapak tak patut halau anak diorg walau sebesar manala diorg nyer salah. kalau budak tu yg tak pandai... kalau yg pompuan... bsr kemungkinan jadi bohsia... kalau yg laki...mungkin jadi pencuri... apasal la nak musnahkan idup anak yg dah musnah... sedangkan nabi ampunkan umat.

ada gak kes, budak tu pandai, tak pernah mintak duit kat mak bapak, tiba2 termengandung... dah.. kena buang keluarga, sian budak tu. kenapala kdg2 parents ni penting kan diri sendiri.. pkla sikit... mcmla diorg ni tak pernah muda.. paham2la kan.. maafkanla dia... suruhla dia balik.

bila dah penat pk, aku call matde and tido balik.....

as of today, i really believe that being a guy has more advantages than being a girl. if i am a guy, i would have the chance to go to sites (boss aku tak caya aku boleh pegi coz i'm a small girl)... tak larat angkat pipe nanti... well.. whatever, a guy don't need permission to go anywhere... boleh tido at friends house without questions.... boleh balik malam, travel jauh... boleh buat apa2 pun... ni aku nak gi swimming pun semua org byk soal.. tension tau tak. aku mmg trasa sungguh tak puas hati with this dammed double standards. i use to remind myself that double standards kat malaysia still very strong, tapi bila sendiri yg terkena... mmg pedas giler.. to hell with them..

ok, tukar citer sikit....
lately byk giler citer2 pasal ibu2 yg ditinggalkan oleh anak. ibu2 jer yg dpt masuk tv sbb selalunyer pompuan yg nampak lagi frail (double standard) and live longer than men. member aku berpendapat, mesti ibu2 ni ibu2 yg jahat kat anak2. well, i never see it that way. i use to believe that it must be the child's fault when they abadon their mothers. if you really thinks about it, sometimes that's true. maybe mak dia mistreated the child.. that the child later on heated the mother so much that they leave her. i just hope when the times come i won't leave my mother...

semalam tgk citer down with love... cool giler citer tu... suka tgk renee tu berjalan.. lenggang tak ingat nyer... ehehe.. matde yg recommend. nasib baik best. sbb selalunyer citer yg dia betul2 nak tgk mmg sucks... ada ker patut ajak aku tgk citer mami jarum junior... langsung tak lawak. dahla guna bahasa yg aku tak familiar.

anyways... i just love that movie... terpaksa tabik renee... dia punya expression mmg tak sapa boleh lawan.. and also... yesterday my first time travel dari putrajaya ke rumah. jauh sungguh. nasib baik tak sesat. terpaksa hantar matde balik ke rumah sbb dia tumpang org ke-pyramid...

tadi mcm ada benda nak tulis... tapi dah lupa... makin lama makin pelupa la aku agaknyer. well, nothings new... as usual, byk giler yg aku nak buat.. tapi semua takleh nak jalan sbb byk sgt halangan (ie. mak tak kasi, bapa tak kasi, keter adik aku pakai, duit tak cukup... bla bla bla). i just hate it bila jadi camtu. not that i always get what i want. normally the other way round.

but sometimes, i don't know what i want. do i want to change my job? i think in this case it is 50-50. i am a little bit lucky actually to straight away dpt keje after duit aku dah hampir abis kat bank. tmpt keje pun dekat ngan rumah... even though it takes me 40 minutes to get to work. aku bawak keter slow sikit. maklumla... tak biasa... at least aku dah boleh bawak. compared to few months ago. nak kuarkan keter dari parking spot pun tak berani.

sbnrnya, aku pun tak tau apa point aku... nak abiskan masa jer sbnrnya... have to wait for my dad. bila la agaknyer "probation" period aku ni nak abis. asyik kene tunggu org jer.

and skrg aku dah start tgk2 keter apa yg aku nak beli... keter tu mesti tak lebih dari 1.3cc, compact, 4 doors. kereta2 yg aku berkenan... kelisa, peugeot 206 and citreon C3.... tgk gaya, kelisa jer yg aku mampu beli...but i think citreon tu 1.6cc la... have to check again.