i'm very excited... now 2 of my closest friends dah ada baby... so nanti kalau nak lepak2 tak rasa awkward to bawak baby sama
and i'm also very happy sbb most of colleague kata aku dah kurus. walaupun perut still agak buncit coz aku malas nak pakai bengkung after pantang
but i'm a little bit down coz something happen in the office. and my boss is scaring the hell out of me. and now i have to be more patient in the office. jgn pandai2 buat apa2. LOA is very important. it's ok not to do anything as long as you are not doing the wrong thing.
it's safer to not try to be a hero. i notice that is how my manager takes things in the office
and the sad thing is, he is still a manager after all this years...
and i just realize how important this job is to me and my family
just imagine what will happen if one day i got sacked? i'm the breadwinner.
even though i dont really buy things for myself. i need to distribute my money to all my family members.

oh... i am still breastfeeding at night and in the morning. and express breastmilk after lunch hour. i'm targeting till aiman 1 year old before totally stop expressing the breastmilk and just give formula. and targeting for aiman at least one and half year old to totally stop breastfeeding him... after taht... hopefully my hubby give the ok sign of having another one... it's weird.. i complaint non-stop when i was pregnant. i complaint more when aiman was born. and i still cannot forget the pain delivering him and how painful it was after it coz i pushed too hard. but after all that, i still want another cute little baby. penat camner pun, how stress i was about work, i still can push it away when i hear and see aiman laugh... :)
and just because of that, i dont mind going through all those process again....
thank you hubby for being there for me and be patient during those times... not all men can take it

i'm waiting for my flight back home to KL
this is a very nervous trip for me. 1st time leaving my 7 mth baby at home for 2 nights
everynight i sleep with him
it feels different not having him around. even though i am less tired. i still long to see him again
luckily my hubby followed. otherwise, i dont think i can sleep at all.
last time i thought i will get very cranky if i'm hungry and tired.
nowadays, i realize that i cannot be either stress/hungry/tired. bila ada 3 combination ni, better to stay away from me.... i can snap like a crazy woman anytime. so, i'm disciplaning myself to not bring work home. when i'm home. i dont care whatever happen to the world. biar la crude naik 10 dollar ker, drop 10 dollar ker... i cannot give a damn.
otherwise, i'll get crazy.