i got another 30 minutes to spend.
but got no idea to write...
ermmm... ideas... ideas....
ni la.. bila ada masa nak blogging, tiba2 takde idea pulak

bila teringat jer pasal duk kat US, sure aku tringat zaman2 matde lost...
pastu aku pun stress
bila dah berumur ni...and dah kerja.. and tau selok belok pasal kerja
and ada masa nak pikir pasal org lain
baru terpikir all the things that i can do for him then
tapi itu kisah lama
apa2 hal pun, aku still takkan bole tukar apa2
cuma skrg kena kuatkan semangat and remind myself that i can and will help him out
provided he didnt do anything stupid like having an affair or something la
itu mmg nak cari nahas jer la kan
i think i was in a way very selfish... i just want to get rid of him
i always wonder, what happen if he didnt come home
things might be very different...

i always wanted to know how it feels to be a fulltime housewife
how would it feel to get up in the morning without having to rush to the office
no traffic jem. no boss/colleague to please
no office politics to handle...
just worry what to cook for the day, if my husband will have dinner at home...
maybe one day when my hubby has started working, and we are almost ok...
i want to take one year no-pay holiday... and try to pursue other things. like being a good housewife
my hubby said, i will be a lousy one... but if u never try, u never know right???

something happened in my recently and people still talking about it
it makes me think about my relationship with my hubby
i always feel that i can be myself with him
and i always tell him. this is me... if u dont like me, just leave me.. coz i know i cannot change.
i also believe people dont change much.
u are not suppose to marry someone and expect him to change later
people normally will be themselve when they are around their significant other
getting married is one thing
staying happily married is a whole other thing
marriage is a hardwork
i dont believe we can be happily married without some effort.
that is just wishful thinking
i am glad though that my husband, despite his limitations, he is smart enough to handle me
i hope we will stay married until death do us part
and i hope i can handle all the problems that my children bring later on...
i really pity my parents. they have 8 children... and these 8 children are giving them 8 problems and sometimes they think they cant take it anymore...