fuh... baru balik dari shopping... penat giler.. tula yg aku malas nak gi shopping, sure trasa penat in the end. dpt kasut jer.. suit tak dpt.. ada tapi mahal sgt. so, maybe next time aku kena gi lagi... since ada 1 bulan jer lagi nak duduk sini... aku makan mmg tak ingat dunia nyer... everyday makan kat luar.. tak larat dah nak makan food sendiri.

member2 masa high school
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just in case u guys don't know, aku duduk kat Asrama Toh Puan Norashikin and bersekolah di Bukit Bintang Girls' School for 5 years.

yann
budak ATPN gak, satu kelas ngan minah ni from F1, F4 & F5. deskmate kat prep class as well as masa kat sekolah. so, in short, we're very close. gelak sama2, tidur sama2 dalam kelas, kutuk semua cikgu2 yg ajar kitorg sama2 (patutla selalu dpt no corot dalam kelas). minah ni kurus giler sampai org panggil dia kate Moss malaysia... kalau main netball, asyik jatuh jer... org langgar, jatuh, dia langgar org pun dia jatuh gak...muka cam muka hindustan gak... so, mamat paling hensem kat asrama laki ngorat dia... tapi since mamat tu player, aku suruh dia clash... napala.. ko ikut ckp aku yann, kalau aku, aku sure tak ikut pun ckp aku... biasala tu kan...

zana
she's very pretty, people ckp muka mcm posh spice. so, she acted and dress like her (pakai baju itam jer). deskmate at school in F2 and F3. somehow i hated her for a while in F4. can't really remember why... maybe because she poked me a lot... also, lost contact already

ayong
masuk ATPN masa F4. dulu belajar kat sek agama.. so, she was the first person yg pakai tudung labuh kat BBGS (yg pakai tudung pun boleh kira ngan jari). suka gelak besar (pelik gak masa baru2 jumpa). but i got use to it... member duduk kat dalam library masa lunch sbb nak simpan duit utk tambang balik rumah

singa
dpt gelaran ni sbb garang sgt. tapi hati baik... love the way she speaks. muka lawa.. tapi malangnyer byk jerawat.. selalu ada guy problem (akula penasihat nyer).

memem
pakai spec tebal.. skrg dah tak lagi... lawa giler mata dia sbnrnya.. suka joke around and buat aksi stripper... entah mana la blaja.... rajin baca buku, tapi in the end selalunyer buku yg baca dia... selalu invent new words (i.e bergedumbek = bersuka ria tahap maksima)

bugys
inila anakanda aku... sapa2 balak aku akan jadi ayahanda dia la (ko dpt ayahanda muda la skrg bugys).. aku pun tak ingat since bila dia panggil aku bonda. maybe sbb aku selalu membebel and urutkan kepala dia kot...and maybe dari situ jugakla aku develop aku nyer skill mengurut kepala. selalu bergossip bawah ampaian belakang asrama/depan surau etc etc.. dia nyer cousin hot giler...mekanik lak tuh... ehehe...

anis
the first person yg aku bagitau aku nyer "secret" yg forever change my life. she's cool and open minded. tak kisah langsung half-naked dalam bilik... kitorg selalu bertukar2 secret. also member mengorat mamat2 depan asrama. aku stop activity tu bila org lebih gatal dari aku gi ngorat mamat2 tu lak. buruk rupanyer ngorat laki. unfortunately, she left in F3... skrg dah ada 2 anak... (maybe my first friend yg got married)

awin
byk giler ckp and selalu tukar2 balak... so, aku la penasihat dia..... don't know what happen to her now. kinda pretty too.. aku dikelilingi pompuan lawa rupanyer masa high school...

pidah
selalu kena gastrik tapi degil taknak makan ubat and jrg makan.. so, aku selalu tension jer ngan dia... sensitive, very artistic.. roomate since F1 till F5.. fuh... can't believe it...

i hated the school and hostel.. i'm so glad i left the place... but i always miss the people in it... these are the people that have made me what i am today... too many memories that i don't want to forget....

Recently, I learn about personality in psychology class. There is a theory (cannot remember which one) saying that we develop our personality as early as 7 years old and we normally look at our parents as a role model. I strongly agree with that. I really look up at my parents. I’m so amaze at how my father feed, cloth and school 8 people with only RM1000 a month. Right now, I don’t think I can even live with 1000, let alone feed another human being. And my mom, she stayed at home, all day long taking care of us. It must be so stressful. But she pulled it through. It is truly amazing. My dad never believe in telling his children what not to do. So, whenever he doesn’t agree with what I wanted to do, he’ll start giving out 1000 reasons why I shouldn’t do it. And when I’m not doing very well at school (i.e. Got third place from bottom), he’ll start asking why and why and why…. It happened. Believe me, it is very2 annoying. I love them so much but unfortunately, I never say it in front of them. We are just never good at expressing our feeling. I think my mom is so cool because she always let me cut class whenever I want especially in high school. I don’t know why, but I always hated school.

People always say, the reason why we have to get a degree is to get a good job. I think that is true to some extent. But, for me, going to school, teach me how to think. So I can be a better person. So hopefully I’ll make better judgments when the occasion arises. Even though by now I realize that I keep making stupid decisions in my life.

- Split Personality-

finally, aku dah amik brg2 matde dari Bate. pukul 8.30 pagi baru nak call aku. rupa2nyer dia tunggu aku kat office dia. ngok sungguh. dah suruh aku call bilik dia, dia gi pulak tunggu kat office. as usual, before dpt nak set kan masa nak jumpa, membebel2 la dia dalam tepon. tak boleh ker kalau set kan masa terus, takyah byk bunyik.. anyways, sapa2 yg terbaca blog aku ni, aku ada byk brg2 matde yg aku nak kasik..so, call me.

tiba2 aku rasa mual2 and pening2 kepala hari ni... takkanla aku kena keracunan makanan lagik? logik gak sbnrnya sbb pagi tadi aku minum susu yg date dah mampus hari ni. dasyat giler la aku kat sini. asal ada food, telan jer.. aku mmg tak reti nak bezakan food tu dah spoil ke idak. so, byk kali la aku ni kena keracunan makanan kat sini. kdg2 kalau dah lapa sgt, makanan dah rasa lain sikit pun, aku terpaksa telan jer and just hoping i won't get sick.....

Song of the day
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Come away with me in the night
Come away with me
And I will write you a song

Come away with me on a bus
Come away with me where they can't tempt us
With their lies

I want to walk with you
On a cloudy day
In fields where the yellow grass grows
knee kigh
So won't you try to come

Come away with me and we'll kiss
On a mountain top
Come away with me
And I'll never stop loving you

And I want to wake up with the rain
Falling on a tin roof
While I'm safe there in your arms
So all I ask is for you
To come away with me in the night
Come away with me

ps: betul la kata apu, lagu ni best...

things are going pretty ok skrg ni.. program no 5 dah siap ngan berjaya nyer.. so, everything is good.

petronas nyer interview kena tangguh la pulak. starting next month, hidup aku sure dah busy. final and all.. tolongla jgn masa aku nyer final diorg nak buat interview.. pastu dgr2 maybe pet takder keje for electrical engineers. kalau camni, terpaksala aku carik keje kat kilang electronics kat malaysia.... jadi minah kilang balik la aku ni....tapi cool gak.. boleh jumpa mat2 motor... ehehe... i don't know why, tapi aku rasa mat2 motor is soooo cooolllll... and smoking guys are cool too.... maybe masa aku growing up, most guys yg aku jumpa is mat motor and smoker kot...

lama giler aku dah tak update aku nyer blog, busy giler lately... ermm.. skrg dah rasa boleh bernafas sikit. weekend kena study for exam on monday la tapi.

semenjak2 aku nak abis blaja ni, byk kali gakla aku reflect kat benda2 bodoh yg aku pernah buat semenjak masuk tadika(sbb that's the earliest memory that i have). tapi semua benda2 bodoh yg aku buat tu ada pengajaran dia jugak....

hari ni, aku nak cerita one of it. setiap hari nak gi tadika, kakak aku bonceng aku naik basikal. masa duduk kat belakang tu, aku selalu la tengok jari2 basikal tu...aku curious giler, camner la kalau aku masukkan tumit aku dalam jejari tu... satu hari ni, aku decided nak masukkan gak, mula2 rasa geli2... and tak sakit pun...lama gak aku biar jer.... then bila kakak aku nak stop basikal, aku trasa sakit... dia tak tau pun aku buat tu... pastu aku tengok tumit dah takder kulit.... giler ngeri... lepas tu, aku dah tak ingat apa jadi. aku rasa cikgu aku balutkan kaki aku kot.. so, pengajaran dari insiden tu, walaupun camner curious pun kat something, jgn pakai buat jer.. pk dulu...

ok.. sekian terima kasih...

Dear, dear diary

I wanna tell my secrets
'Cause you're the only one
That I know will keep them
Dear, dear diary
I wanna tell my secrets
I know you'll keep them
So this is what I've done

I've been a bad, bad girl
For so long
Don't know how to change
What went wrong
Daddy's little girl
But he went away
What did it teach me?
That love leaves yeah, yeah

Dear, dear diary
I wanna tell my secrets
'Cause you're the only one
That I know will keep them
Dear, dear diary

I wanna tell my secrets
I know you'll keep them
So this is what I've done

I've been down every road
You could go
I've made some bad choices
As you know
Seems like I got this whole world
Cradled in my hand
It's just like me not to understand, yeah

Dear, dear diary
I wanna tell my secrets
'Cause you're the only one
That I know will keep them
Dear, dear diary
I wanna tell my secrets
I've been a bad, bad girl

I learned my lessons young and
I turned myself around

I gotta guardian angel
Tattooed on my shoulder
She's been watchin' over me


Dear, dear diary
I wanna tell my secrets
'Cause you're the only one
That I know will keep them
Dear, dear diary
I wanna tell my secrets
I know you'll keep them
So this is what I've done