last night was the third night aiman blaja Iqra' and i'm so proud of him because he can remembers most of it.
have not taught him ABC yet but i will next year
looking back, i kinda remember that my dad taught me ABC and jawi very early on too. by 7 years old i already know how to read and recite the quran
so, i think early education kinda help in your advancement in life
i never consider myself as genius. i am more hard working than most
whatever i do, be it studying or working, my motto is always "usaha tangga kejayaan"
so.. i will try to instill this in my kids as well
as long as we are resilient, insyallah we can face almost anything
the best thing that my father taught me was being independant and i think the best thing that i can impart my kids would be how to think...

i feel so tired
when im at home, i am tired handling the kids and the house chore
when im in the office, i am mentally tired.
i really need to take a break
but when i think of taking a leave, there are a million things that i need to settle. have to change addresses in all the banks
open bank account for the kids and write a will
i have too many things under my name. i need to write a will ASAP.
ermm... really wish can just spend a day pampering myself.
maybe i need to take a day off, maybe this saturday send the kids to in laws and spend the day by myself. maybe, maybe.... have to see how on friday

selamat hari raya... maaf zahir batin
setahun sudah berlalu
this time last year, i am still cannot walk properly
sometimes when i look back, i can hardly imagine that i cannot walk at all
sometimes feels like it was just a nightmare

times flies...
my kids are growing up fast
myself getting older and hopefully wiser
alhamdullilah, after all the hardship i had to go through the past years
i finally able to figure out what i want out of my life
this is really really important. otherwise, we will not know what is important and what is not.

hope allah will grant me strength for me to pursue my life goal. it is not going to be easy and it can be monotanous. but i know my duties and like it or not, i have to do it. i have make a resolution that i will do it no matter what. no matter how boring it will be. i cannot be a career woman and at the same time be a mother.

i dont know why i am always angry. sometimes when i look at my child and see how easily they get angry, it really amazes me... maybe that is how we were born. but if we keep at it, we will surely hurt our loved ones. and i must be nicer to my husband
he is actually a very nice person. but he irritates me so much... even when i tell him he is being irritating.. ermm... something wrong with me perhaps?

like my boss used to say, admitting that we have a problem is the first step to improve ourselve. we cannot improve ourselves if we think there is nothing wrong within... errmmmm