syukur kepada Allah...
aku dah bole guna tongkat. sebulan lebih sudah berlalu semenjak aku di diagnose with this syndrome. mula2 tu, mmg sgt depress. tapi utk mengelakkan terkena gila meroyan, ku tabahkan hati and paksa diri berfikiran positive.
ada juga sekali dua aku termenitik air mata.
alhamdullilah, tak la jadi gila
tahun ni tahun pertama beraya tanpa mak tercinta. trasa hambar saja. kali pertama berpantang tanpa mak. sgt berbeza rasanyer.
mak mentua sgt prihatin dan cuba mcm2 cara nak tolong aku jalan balik.
tapi, mak sendiri mmg tiada tolok banding nyer.
whatever it is, i will still need my mom.
next target is to walk with a walking stick. skrg guna yg ada 4 tapak tu. and to climb up stairs.

alhamdullilah... semakin hari, aku rasa semakin kuat kaki ku ini. but i still have few more muscle group yg aku kena kerja kuat untuk kuatkan. i found that my butt muscles are so weak that i almost unable to use it at all. this muscle group makes me unable to get up from sitting position and climb up the stairs.

so, i need the theraphy's advice what excersices i need to concentrate on. it seems that i still dont walk right. using my trunk instead of the hip.

i have to re-learn almost everything. sitting down, standing up, walking... turning around.

think i will be out of the office for quite sometimes. i wish i will be back though. cannot affford to be out of job now. cost of living just went up n hubby salary will not be enough to pay for even the necessary stuff.

feels like i'm making a bit of progress. it feels easier to get up, and to straighthen myself. i think i may able to walk with a walking stick but i dont have the confidence yet. i still need to balance myself using two hands. hence, i still need to rely on walking frame.

next week on thursday is 44 days and habisla waktu berpantang. well, if it is not for my MIL, i will eat anything. she doesnt allow me to eat anything. ermm... takperla. i'm not going to make a big fuss out of it

i feel good because at least there is improvement even how small it seems. as soon as i can walk, hope i can make it much stronger to walk up the stairs.