as for every weekend i will watch nur kasih over the internet.
friday ada makan2 ngan kawan2 matde. so, tak dpt concentrate.. tak best tgk ngan org yg tak appreciate benda ni pun.
the issues are all very close to reality.
byk delimma and drama which i like
kat situ dia tunjuk camner beriman pun org tu, kalau diduga Allah, belum tentu dpt tangkis. camni la yg citer melayu patut buat... cinta bersegi2 and ada juga peracunnyer. it just shows, walaupun minah tu pakai tudung litup, belum tentu hati dia baik. and bila nur blah tinggalkan laki dia sbb terperanjat dgr laki dia kawin lain, baru la mcm betul. kalau drama lain, sure dia terima jer nasib mcm tak logik.
anyways, thumbs up for this citer. sapa2 yg curious bole gi check it out at tv3.com.my under nur kasih episodes.

i learn something new yesterday. when people are pushed to a corner and ianyer melibatkan periuk nasi nyer.. he will do whatever to protect it. that's why kdg2 decision yg dia buat dah tak objective. it is not for the best of the company. it is for the best of himself. and the way my organization is designed, it makes each one in the company compete with each other, trying to get the same market share. but the problem is, we are of the same company. this really confuses people in the market and for those who sees this, will take it to their advantage. which i think is really really stupid. there is no point in this. it is just a waste of time when two people in a company trying to get the same market share. it will be chidlish to think we will work together. this is even more bullshit. people will back stab you to protect himself. for those like me who doesnt know to protect myself will suffer. i think i have been stabbed too many times now. honestly, every time i go to work, i have set my mind that i will do the best for my company because i owe them for sending me to the states before. that loan would be paid off in the next 4 years... after that, will i conform to the majority and starts to look after myself?? aku hanya insan yg lemah dan hamba Allah yg sungguh banyak dosanyer.... kuatkanlah iman hambamu ini

i notice, bulan puasa ni aku agak kurang bersikap kurang ajar terhadap hubby. mungkin sbb hati lebih tenang. insyallah aku akan cuba lebihkan membaca ayat2 suci Al-Quran untuk mendapat ketenangan jiwa even after puasa.

also reading about parenting and i think aiman is a responsive child. he likes to talk and it is very easy to distract him. kalau dia nangis2, distract his mind to something else pun bole. actually hubby dah ajar jugak. sbb kalau aiman mengamuk, aku pun mengamuk sama... tapi dia kata, kenala manipulate sikit anak tu. api ngan api, akan jadi api yg lagi besar.

ramadan mubarak.
alhamdullilah, first day of puasa. semoga puasa tahun ini diberkati allah.
hubby baru beli comp baru. as usual, he will need a bit help on the financing. he always makes an offer that i simply cannot refuse. the first time he bought a comp, he doesnt need financing but i just hate the fact that he buy a new comp when i already bought him a laptop. so, i asked him to give me the same amount of money he needs to buy a comp. well, since he really really wanted to buy it, he gave me the money. then, this one kaput already and cannot stand not having a computer. after another round of negotiation, we decided that i will help in the financing but i can use the comp whenever i want it. heheh... true enough, yesterday i spent the whole night using his new comp.. hehe... not a bad a deal at all..

so, i spent it watching tv3 series. this yr i think tv3 doing a great job in their drama selection. every day citer dia mmg best. tapi sbb aiman sleeps at 9ish, aku selalunyer tak dpt nak follow. so, aku gi website and tgk. last night i watched La Dolce Amira the last two series. mak oiiii.... sedihnyer citer. the way they twist the story is so nice, i have to salute the director. the actor and actress also not so bad. another one i'm following now is nur kasih. jalan citer pun power and aku suka cara dia oleh the citer. it plays with the emotion. hero dia mmg lelaki melayu sejati and ada cara ckp yg aku rasa sgt macho. hehe... in real life i will definitely fall for this kinda guy.

1 more hour before i will need to start masak for sahur. time for some movie...

lately ni aku terjumpa tamar jalis nyer buku citer kat internet. matde la yg jumpa. citer dia takla seram sgt. tapi every short stories dia ada tema...
1. solat jgn tinggal
2. sentiasa jujur dalam semua pekerjaan
3. jgn angkuh.

i think lepas baca buku ni, aku lagi motivated utk jaga solat. bagi aku jaga solat is not something yg senang. ngan sibuk kerja and all.... sgt senang terleka and lupa. bole kira la brapa hari aku bole solat cukup 5 kali sehari.

pastu utk buat something dgn betul2 jujur pun susah. mcm skrg ni, aku rasa aku dah worked my ass off. tapi still not be properly rewarded. tak pernah pun dapat recognition. tapi aku tgk org lain yg kerja mcm tak sebagus aku pun senang2 dpt recognition. every year dpt 2. bila dah jadi camni, mmg susah sikit la kan... tapi bila pikir2 balik, mungkin balasan utk aku nanti dpt kat Aiman.. which i dont mind at all. also, mungkin jugak dulu aku byk giler dosa. so, kurang la sikit berkat tu. kalau aku dok banding2 camni, maybe aku takkan happy kerja. aku pun malas nak carik kerja lain. i'm pretty happy where i am now. kalau nak kira complain, satu page pun tak settle. ye dak?

insyallah di jauhkan la sikap angkuh tu. i can be seen as snobbish too sometimes. we'll mungkin aku kena arahkan org at least sekali dalam sehari. kalau tak dpt nak mengarah satu hari tu, matde la yg jadi mangsa.... hehehe siannnn diaa..... ada this one friend of mine ckp sian laki aku kawin ngan aku. dia dgr aku bebel pun tak tahan. tapi aku rasa hubby aku tak kisah kot. tu yg dia kawin ngan aku.

i'm thinking of taking Aiman on a ferry trip.
maybe plan to go to langkawi. take a car, then naik taxi. i bet this time is more fun because we can now enjoy going to fish/crocodile taman.
last time it wasnt so much fun because only the two of us.
nothing really excites us.
or, maybe i should go to penang and naik ferry kat situ ker.
yg penting dapat bawak aiman naik ferry.
then next time bole bawak dia naik kapal terbang
skrg ni senang nak buat activity coz everything will be a first for aiman.
and it is surprisingly easy to make a child happy. a mere walk on the garden, sit in front of the house..
and he is very happy. no need to buy expensive things
maybe because he doesnt understand it yet
hehe... lepas raya must plan.
time puasa ni aku ber hibernate..

last 2 days i was on biz trip. it was fun coz lots more girls on the trip. last time mostly with guys. so not fun coz normally they will do their own thing and leave me alone at night... not that i want to join them. anyways, since i was having the time of my life with these girls, i went home so tired. and as usual, even though i'm the bread winner i still have to clean up my house and take care of the kids when i'm home. well, what else is new?? so... i'm super fried.
tomorrow i still have to go to another biz trip and the week after maybe have to entertain a super angry client. argghhh... i'm tired.... want to sleep....
gone were the days where life is so carefree...
tak sabar nak tunggu bulan puasa. i plan to only berbuka puasa with family or frens. it taste so much better break fast with the people you love and care. biar pun cuma makan nasi and ikan goreng and air sirap. takyahla nak makan benda2 mahal.
today i went to spital with my mom. she will have her operation very very soon.
i hope everything will be ok. hubby is not well also.
this weekend must go back to kampung and spend time with him.
must check on AIman. i'm on emergency leave today
accompany mom and hubby to doctor.