Minggu lepas and minggu2 yg sudah aku tersgt tension sampai tak lalu mkn n all. I whine and whine non stop. Rasa sgt tertekan ngan keja. Pastu aku dok baca blog org n diorg pun stress ngan keja gak. So, aku buat kesimpulan takder keja dlm dunia ni yg tak buat ok stress. Duk rumah jaga anak pun stress gak. So, buat jerla tak tau. Maybe aku extra stress sbb kat tmpt keja Performance eval time. N I know I'm not doing too well. I worked very hard but still cannot perform. How frustrating. Tak tau dah nak buat camner. Ngan boss yg tak reti2 bagi direction, pastu terkapai2 la aku keseorangan. Ntahler tapi bila dipikir2 kan aku ni takla malang sgt. Ada jer yg lagi malang. Paling teruk pun, tahun ni takder increment n bonus. At least I still got a job. Betul tak? My boss said all these will make me stronger. Will see if this will make me or brake me. Either way, I don't want to care.....

I'm so stressed! It's showing on my body. I never smile anymore, Im getting thinner and my temper has gotten shorter n shorter. Sometimes I think I'm even neglecting my son. My hubby has his own way of occupying his time. So, not worry too much on him. It's just that lately aku asyik cari reason nak marah dia. He is a very2 nice person n now dia tak f*** up, it's getting more n more difficult to be angry at him.
Arghh stress nyer......

Facebook is so much fun. There were people esp from high school that I thought I could never get in touch, but thanks to facebook, I can contact them again. Seeing old pictures, oh, how I missed my dorm n the people in it. Cikgu2 nyer juga. Dah tinnggalkan sekolah more than 10 years now. Mostly dah ada family n career. I think we grew up well. Mlm tadi Aiman terjaga tgh mlm, rasa mcm nak sambung tido jer. Dahla hujan2 ni. Boss bsr kata nak amik cuti. Hehe

am trying to post my son's pix but i guess the pixel is too large and i dont know how to scale it down. anyhow, maybe will try to do that later. recently gotten myself a facebook id. not so many friends yet. but i actually got hooked to it. everyday will be checking what are they saying and all... luckily i got a free wifi in my room. most prob one of our neighbor's have wifi. hehe... lucky me. otherwise have to buy one myself.

my son is growing very well. everyday is such a blessing. whatever he does makes us so delighted. when he starts to sit on his own, walk, jump, run, say all those small things like abah, makan, nak, tu... every single things that he does makes us soo happy. :)

my mother is also looking much much better. i'm glad i encourage her to do chemo and radio despite some of our relative's comment on chemo. yup, we do hear scary stories about chemo. but she is holding very very well... and i am very grateful on that. alhamdullilah, the effect is not as bad. she is eating well.