i'm blogging on a daily basis now.. hehe
this is mainly because i recently (last thursday) got a laptop and a constant internet connection.
cannot blogging in the office even though i have tremendous of free time (bossless since 1st June) coz my place is right in front of the office entrance and everyone can see me.
i think for now, i want to start blogging again to improve my writing.
well.. there's nothing really good about my writing but at least i can try to get my ideas out.
and the speaking part, it has become so manglish that it makes it sooo difficult to get words out
godd... i really need to be surrounded by english speaking people again (i.e US)
and i do need to start to find other things to talk about except matde.
he is my husband now and a very good one.
nothing much to blame on him.
i really hope my child will be like him, easy to handle
but on managing finance will follow my lead..
well.. maybe on certain things.. coz when i really want something, i dont care how much i spent as long as i get it but only if i can afford it
i really need to start excersizing... i am currently 57kg.. that is so damn heavy.
i'm afraid i can shed it off later
maybe later i'll do some shopping around orchard road. it hurts to walk or sit down more than 1 hour now
i must start swimming again. swimmm... swimmm away. tapi goggle lak tak bawak. see, there is always reasons for me for not swimming. the truth is, i am damn lazy.
maybe next time i will start writing something more useful.
something philosophical... people said it's good for the baby's development if i think a lot and try to be as cheerful as possible.
cheerful is good.

hari ni aku kat singapore.
still rasa tak best cam biasa
aku pun pelik kenapa
lately... actually for the past couple of months aku cam rasa tak best jer
not sure why
last time because i thought i need a change in my career
i did change it
then, i thought because my life too mundane
but i'm expecting... so, what could cause the feeling of unworthiness?
maybe because aku tak jaga sgt solat
rasa hati kurang tenang
mungkin... should try to pray 5x a day... but i dont know why it is soooo difficult
ada jer yg tertinggal.
this is seriously not good
maybe i also should do like masa aku kat high school.
hati sgt tenang even though aku selalunyer x excel in school
since high school i have this notion that u dont have to be the best at what u do
just make sure u finish it...see it through the end
give ur best effort and in the end bertawakal..
and everthing else insyallah will be fine... betul tak HUBBY? hehehe...
AKU KELAPARAN......

skrg ni aku dah 4 bulan pregnant and my stomach is getting bigger by the day. mmg suma org dah notice. tak kirala berapa besar baju aku pakai.
alhamdullilah, i am feeling better now... more accepting of this motherhood thingy. maybe sbb dapt positive respond dari kawan2 and colleague. apparently, there are quite a number of people in my office yg having difficult time conceiving. so, i guess, it's ok to get pregnant now then having problems later. i guess different people got diff problem.
like me, no problem conceiving but financially not too strong. mcm org lain, duit ada tapi susah lak nak dpt baby...so, i shouldnt really complaining
awal2 dulu mmg byk giler complaint coz my body is adjusting. but now i'm feeling much better. even aku nyer appetite pun dah cam normal balik. takderla kena ada food every 2 hours and dont puke that much too.
trasa mcm best pulak tgk baju2 pregnant. maybe sbb dah lama tak beli baju. aku jenis takkan shop without reason and dah lama aku rasa cam takder sbb utk shopping
since skrg ni mmg perlu.... mcm2 aku beli. bila membeli tu, bukannyer kisah sgt how much i spend. it feels like masa aku mula2 turun berat bdn ngan drasticnyer kat US. in one day i spent USD300 and it feels so good to spend money for myself.
alamak, laki aku dah bising. kitorg tgh plan pasal honeymoon ni. kalau tak gi skrg, mmg takkan gi... so, calos...
some of the clothes, i still wear till now.
bila baby dah kuar nanti, sure lagi byk aku shop.. excited nyer... hehe..