had lunch with philippines broker just now. we'll... before that we tried to celebrate my boss birthday which turns out to be a total disaster. first i was not in d mood, sec. my colleague just plain ***** which i don't think i can tolerate him now... he is just a total *** sometimes...

ok.. i was just in a very bad mood. that's all... ok.. off to shopping now.

the last book i read was Bonesetter's Daughter by Amy Tan. It was awesome.... initially, it looked like a typical american story book but in the end, it gets really interesting.. tells about a relationship between a mother and daughter. i almost cried reading this... i would recommend to those that wants to read this book. it really get me thinking about me and my mother. well... when i was young, my mother was sooo busy with her other kids (i have 4younger brothers/sister) so, she did not have time for me... so, i felt neglected. but now, she has all the time in the world to worry about me. sometimes i really hate that coz, there's a lot of stuff that she won't allow me to do... but anyways, i loved her so much and i cannot imagine life without her. even though i never really tell her my problems, but it is always nice to know that there's someone that will always be there for you no matter how terrible u have been. THat is what we call mother's love... the unconditional love....

lately i have been watching sex and the city or in short SATC. i don't know why but everytime i watched Big hurt Carrie... i will cry. without fail. it was sad... so sad...

:) aku rasa kalau aku x mengutuk laki mmg x sahkan... kesian member2 laki aku. kdg2 tu yg baik2 lak yg trasa. yg agak2 nakal2 ke arah2 menghancurkan idup org tu x lak pulak trasa. anyaways... aku akan cuba sedaya upaya utk x menyakiti hati sapa2... ni la padahnyer kalau mulut xde insurance.

aku nak kena gi gym dah nih. oo... aku join gym skrg. that is how i feel my nite life and that is also how i don't feel that lonely even though i'm not dating right now. weekend lak kat rumah. member2 suma or almost suma bz with all other stuff. at first it feels weird for not really having contact with people in a day. or just a normal conversation. but i know it is something that we just have to deal with. if i cannot handle one more bad relationship... i have to be alone for quite sometimes.... but who knows, maybe since aku ada byk kat kg... tiba2 ada org terpikat ngan rambut pendek aku ker?

okla.. time to pilate... laters....

hari ni ari ahad. adik aku nak gi cc. so, here i am....

aku skrg ni agak2 menyampah ngan citer melayu skrg. mostly potray wanita melayu ni lemah and senang ditindas. yg pompuannyer lak trima jer... x fight langsung. kot yer pun kalau mak mentua tu agak2 mcm nak membunuh dia, try2 la sepak2 skit ker.. lari dari rumah ker. x creative langsung. ni la kalau rumah xde astro and dvd player... tgk jerla citer melayu yg x pernah brubah jln citer nyer.

sbnrnya real life pun xla beza sgt dari citer drama melayu tuh. selalunye bila laki be it a husband or boyfriend buat sial, the girl maafkan jer. sometimes enough for the guy to say sorry. and that's it. when something like that happen again, all he has to say, "sorry honey, i did not see it coming... u see, this kind of thing just come without warning, forgive me ya..." sambil buat muka sedih2 skit and then ckpla yg kalau minah tu x maafkan nak langgar pokok la, xnak makan la.... and bla2... what a jerk. and the girl pun.. apalagi, maafkan la...

the worst thing about all these is the guy doesn't have to see and hear the girl crying her heart out at nite. her frens will have to see it. her other girl frens would be the one that will be there, consoling, calm her down. if i have my ways, i will call and scold all these stupid men. i can understand why some people evntually go back to the old partner. they somtimes afraid of the future. takut x kawin and all. which is valid. kat mesia skrg ni, pompuan lagi ramai dari laki. so, aku paham la. but at least please fight a little. pls don't let him do that to u over and over again. always keep in mind that sometimes enough is enough......

makin lama makin cepat lak masa berlalu... tiba2 jer dah 25 aku nih. tiba2 jer dah 1 tahun aku kerja kat petronas.
i got a new ceo and he made a major overhaul to the company. restructuring the people. well.. since i'm new and only a baby, i don't really care... things like this i bet always happen. u cannot expect too much when working in a big organization easp like petronas.

i come to realization, in petronas, you need to have a good relationship with your superior. u might be the best staff there but if u are hated by your superior... there is no where u can go. but if u are not so good... loose some money, here and there but knows how to golf, go to all the parties, organize stuff... u can be someboday someday. since i'm not too good in doing those. i cannot help but wonder, what will i be in 10 yrs time. for sure i do not want to stay doing what i'm doing for the next ten yrs... i would love to venture in something else... maybe i would do as what my predecessor did, moved to MLNG marketing department. i heard they travelled a lot over there... ehehe... travelling a lot can be fun and can be a lot of work sometimes too...

i travel at least once a month. but when i travel, nobody will take over my job in the office. the heap of my inbox getting bigger each day that i'm gone... so... actually by travelling, i had more stuff to do than not. but hey, since the allowance is good... bole la... ehehe..