penuh sikit rumah malam ni... camnila baru rumah namanyer... takla sunyi sepi cam semlm. sakit jiwa aku jadinyer.

hari ni aku still kat rumah. tomorrow gi kerja dari klang. means kena gerak by pukul 7 or earlier.. damn. anyways, better than staying alone at home. aku ni mmg takleh idup sorg2. i think i'll die of boredom.

hari ni byk pulak parents aku dpt berkat. berkat is makanan yg kitorg dpt dari kenduri kawin. i think only org jawa yg buat tradisi ni. everytime tgk org kawin kita akan dpt nasi and lauk pauk. so, mmg berlambak la lauk kenduri kat rumah. takyah masak pun... not that i'm cooking.. even though i'm trying too. normally bila kitorg dpt berkat ni kitorg makan sama2 dlm dulang... tapi skrg dah jrg buat camtu.. masing makan dlm pinggan jer.

anak sedara aku tgh buat lawak apa ntah depan aku ni. tak paham aku..

if u only have P driving license, takleh nak sewa keter.. ermm...keciwa aku. so, naik jerla taxi kat kerteh. overall, the trip was fun. on wednesday, all my urusan selesai by 3.40 pm. so i went by the pool. ehehehe.... best giler rasa... berjemur jap then swim then baca buku. rasa2nyer dlm pukul 7.15 baru aku balik bilik. itupun sbb nak terkencing.

anyhow. skrg ni kat rumah. its too quite. all my elder sis kat rumah mak mentua masing2, 2 brothers tgk wayang, the youngest gi camp... asyik camping jer mamat tuh and my only younger sis kat melaka buat matriks. mak gi marhaban. so... tinggal la aku and bapak aku kat rumah ni.... nasib baik bapa aku tak rajin gi surau. kalau idak... aku sorg jerla... this house used to be very noisy at night. mana taknyer... 10 org tinggal kat sini. bila masing2 dah bsr ni, masing2 la bawa diri. mmg camtu kot.

rush kena entertain famili, boro jaga bibik, bugys takleh nak kuar, judd don't know what he is up to, yann ada bf, elly kat kedah. so... i'm left with myself this weekend. aku ni mmg jenis yg need to be with people... kalau takder org mmg mati kutu tak tau nak buat apa.

btw, bapa aku baru jer kuar rumah... sorg2 la aku dlm rumah ni... errmmm... what should i do.. blaja masak la... ehehehe... nak buat camner, tak pandai masak krg takder sapa nak kawin ngan aku. okla... enuff crap. baikla aku lipat baju yg menimbun tuh...

peace... <>

i'm reading one romance book right now... well.. what else to do at times like this. the book contains three short stories... the first one was very light... that was the first story that i read yg mmg takder upsets langsung... everything goes smoothly... very smoothly.. the guy wooed the girl for a yr... mind you.. a year.. and the finally they fall in love... bla2..

and the second story pasal this psychic girl. she touched this one man and knows that he will be the guy that she will marry. giler.. i wish i can do that. i just touch a man to know whether he's the one. takyahla nak give out signals ker... takyah pk bagai nak rak to find a way to tell him u like him or whatever lah....very unfair also that the man is very nice.. have a good job... maybe i shouldn't read this romance book at all.. instead of making me feel better.. it is actually makes me feels even more depressed.

can't wait to read the third story...

and tommorrow i'm off to kerteh. since i'm going alone, sampai jer kat kuantan airport, aku nak sewa keter. cuak gak tuh sbb nak kena naik keter bigger than kancil. i know what u guys think... sampai kaki ke idak.. sampai tau. mlm semalam aku test drive wira auto and ok... hopefully tomorrow ada wira... and jalan nak ke awana kijal pun tak tau.. ni mmg gamble giler ni... wish me luck peeps... hope that i don't have to tell my mom coz she will die of worry if she find out... but don't know how not to tell her. of course she'll ask...
gotta put on my thinking cap.. need to tell but not telling.. ehehe

okla.. it's almost 6, i'm out.

finally gonna go home tonight after 2 weeks enjoy kat kl... eheheh... i have been having a very good time lately.. elly came over last tuesday... giler byk gossip. maklumla, we haven't seen each other for a year... too many things to catch up. hopefully she can come again and talk and do stuff... malas aku nak stay lama2 kat office nih.. hence... i need to go home

this is a bit lengthy but i like it so much that i have to post it on my blog. i want to thank to all my girlfirends for being there with me when i needed it... thanks for listening when i told my never ending problems... so girlfriends... read on

Girlfriend

A young wife sat on a sofa in Bukit Timah on a hot humid
day, drinking iced tea and visiting with her Mother.

As they talked about life, about marriage, about the
responsibilities of life and the obligations
of adulthood, the mother clinked the ice
cubes in her glass thoughtfully and turned a
clear, sober glance upon her daughter.

”Don’t forget your girlfriends,” she advised, swirling
the tea leaves to the bottom of her glass. “They’ll be
more important as you get older. No matter how much you love
your husband, no matter how much you love
the children you’ll have, you are still going to need girlfriends.

Remember to go places with them now and then;
do things with them. And remember that “girlfriends” are
not only your friends, but your sisters, your daughters, and
other relatives too. You’ll need other women. Women always do.”

’What a funny piece of advice,’ the young woman
thought. ‘Haven’t I just gotten married? Haven’t I just joined the
couple-world? I’m now a married woman, for goodness sake, a
grownup, not a young girl who needs girlfriends! Surely my husband
and the family we’ll start will be all need to make my life worthwhile!’

But she listened to her Mother; she kept contact with
her girlfriends and made more each year. As the years
tumbled by, one after another, she gradually came to understand
that her Mom really knew what she was talking about.
As time and nature work their changes and their mysteries
upon a woman, girlfriends are the mainstays of her life.

After 50 years of living in this world, here is what I
know about girlfriends:
Girlfriends bring you chicken curry and scrub your bathroom when you need help.

Girlfriends keep your children and keep your secrets.

Girlfriends give advice when you ask for it. Sometimes you take it,
sometimes you don’t.

Girlfriends don’t always tell you that you’re right, but they’re usually
honest.

Girlfriends still love you, even when they don’t agree with your choices.

Girlfriends laugh with you, and you don’t need canned jokes to start the laughter.

Girlfriends pull you out of jams.

Girlfriends help you get out of bad relationships.

Girlfriends help you look for a new apartment, help you pack, and help you
move.

Girlfriends will give a party for your son or daughter
when they get married or have a baby, in whichever order that comes!

Girlfriends are there for you, in an instant and when the hard times come.


Girlfriends will drive through blizzards, rainstorms, hail, heat, and gloom of night to get to you when your hour of need is desperate.

Girlfriends listen when you lose a job or a friend.

Girlfriends listen when your children break your heart.

Girlfriends listen when your parents’ minds and bodies fail.

Girlfriends cry with you when someone you loved dies.

Girlfriends support you when the men in your life let you down.

Girlfriends help you pick up the pieces when men pack up and go.

Girlfriends rejoice at what makes you happy, and are ready to go out and kill what makes you unhappy.

Times passes.
Life happens.
Distance separates.
Children grow up.
Love waxes and wanes.
Hearts break.
Careers end.
Jobs come and go.
Parents die.
Colleagues forget favours.
Men don’t call when they say they will.
BUT girlfriends are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are between you. A girlfriend is never farther away than needing her can reach.
When you have to walk that lonesome valley, and you
have to walk it for yourself, your girlfriends will be on the valley’s rim, cheering you on, praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on your behalf, and waiting with open arms at the valley’s end. Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk beside you. Or come in and carry you out.

My daughter, sisters, mother, sisters-in-law, mother-in-law,aunties, nieces, cousins, extended family, and friends bless my life! The world wouldn’t be the same without them, and neither would I.
When we began this adventure called womanhood, we had no idea of the
incredible joys or sorrows that lay ahead. Nor did we know how much
we would need each other. Every day, we need each other still.

Pass this on to the women who help make your life work.
I just did.

watched troy last eve... wooowww.... giler power body brad pitt and charming as always. eheheh.... judd even wants to buy the DVD when its came out. takper, kalau dia beli, aku pinjamla kan... <> juddzzz..

and also, yesterday was the first day aku kuar awal giler dari office which was 1.5 hrs earlier... terserempak ngan satu manager ni.. bising tul mulut dia. aku cakap la aku nak gi post office. lantakla dia kat situ. aku nak kuar gak. judd la ni.. dtg awal giler.. ehehe... kena lagi judd... juddzzzz . all in all it was fun...

watched troy last eve... wooowww.... giler power body brad pitt and charming as always. eheheh.... judd even wants to buy the DVD when its came out. takper, kalau dia beli, aku pinjamla kan... <> juddzzz..

and also, yesterday was the first day aku kuar awal giler dari office which was 1.5 hrs earlier... terserempak ngan satu manager ni.. bising tul mulut dia. aku cakap la aku nak gi post office. lantakla dia kat situ. aku nak kuar gak. judd la ni.. dtg awal giler.. ehehe... kena lagi judd... juddzzzz . all in all it was fun...

ermm.. its 11.19 am and i am almost done... wow... for the first time in 2 months aku nyer meja kemas giler... and xder customer shouting... supplies cukup... ehehe.. just wait till the end of this month. kali ni aku nak plan elok2... taknak bagi byk2 shipments towards the end of the month. or xleh load by the end of the month. enough about work

hitz fm talked about gentlemen in malaysia... i personally do not really like gentleman.. maybe because i was never surrounded by one. i myself far from gentle.. ehehehe... how can i live with someone that treat me like i'm a handicap? or even romantic guys. i always laugh when guys just tried to be romantic with me. i don't know how to be romantic. ok, when someone said that he cannot live without u, but of course u can live without him.. what do u say then? do u laugh or smile or make sweet faces just not to kill the mood? damn... maybe i should take relationship 100 class.

i think there's not many romantic and gentleman guys in malaysia anyway... so.. i do not think i should worry at all..

peace <>

malam tadi tgk citer "all about us" or something like that la tajuk dia..cannot recall really.. anyways, dlm citer tuh, after few yrs the couple just do not love each other anymore... is it not scary? i'm sure if i get marry, there will be times when i hated my husband. but to completely lost the love? u see, i'm not getting younger and have to think about this kind of think.. i wish i'm still 16... life was not easier then but still i don't have to think about financial security, marriage and all... those stuff are too depressing to think about....

ok, if u have a problem, do u dwell on it or u find a solution to it? given the choice i'm sure most people will choose the latter. but to get to the second option is not that easy... of course when u have problem u tend to think about it.. really think about till by the end of the day, all u get is a headache and a very bad mood. some people say it is good to talk about your problem. to some extent it will help... only to some extent... coz most of the problem solving has to come from our ownselves. u can tell your problems to hundreds of people for the next ten yrs... but if u're just too chicken to face it.. it is definitely not going anywhere... am i right? giler... i think i can talk about this on and on and on... maybe i should just stop with this crap and start slaving myself for petronas...

so, right now, i just want to do what i should have done million years ago and not to think about the consequences... wish me luck peeps...

hidup as org bujang mmg fun giler... on saturday, aku tido sampai pukul 1.30 tghari... since bilik aku cerah sgt, aku lari gi bilik rush. and sambil2 aku tido tu i got 5 different official phone calls... sure diorg kutuk giler aku... anak dara bgn lewat giler... sapa suruh kacau aku on saturdays and aku jwb pun mcm nak xnak jer.. then ptg tu head to acap's house.

on sunday, bgn awal sikit coz ada org nak pasang rail utk langsir... lepak2... boro balik. tiba2 jer kitorg nak mandi sungai. x sampai 5 mins aku dah siap berpakaian... giler excited. nasib baik la kitorg x dgr nasihat judd... aku rasa dia jeles sbb takleh ikut. ehehhe... anyways, i had a blast. dpt spot yg dlm... and aku berenag2 ngan bestnyer... next week nak gi lagiiiiiiii..... abisla, entah bilanyer aku nak balik rumah cam ni...

aiyoooo... kepala aku sudah berdarah wooo.... kalau masa blaja... aku nyer kepala cuma berdarah time finals jer... ini everyday ini mcm.. manyak susah oooo....

penat sungguh mulut aku bercakap ari2... ermmm... maybe today after work i shouldn't go out with anyone.. just hang out by myself. and go jogging so that i will feel better.. and find a reading material, perhaps a paper. lama dah tak baca paper. nak baca pun xder masa. how come? how come?

already lah.... mau pulangla... don't want to stay any longerla.....

cuti 5 hari ari tu... cuti pun x trasa cam cuti skrg ni... ngan org asyik call jer.. and skrg aku masih kat office. aku masuk pukul 8.00 pagi and i'm going back at 8 also... is it not ridiculous? well... apart from that, everytime aku gi jumpa client, aku mmgla dpt gift. and org pun dah start ckp yg benda tu mcm bribe... tapi if semua org pun dpt, xla riba kan namanyer...

tomorrow nite gonna have another dinner. so... maybe another gift? ehehehe....

i think elly is at malaysia right now... kalau ko baca blog aku ni elly... msg aku. nak jumpa ko...