hari ni takder keje langsung. well, i have to make one phone-call to Miri and that's it for today. boss ada lak kat office. kalau dia tak masuk or masuk at least after lunch kan best. at least i can do whatever until then.

baca blog elly tadi and it seems that ramai budak taiping nak kawin. well, since aku nyer life surrounded by Taiping-leavers, aku pun tau la sedikit sbnyk perkembangan diorg. all my sisters pun kawin masa umur diorg 23-24. so, mmg expectedla for me for people to get married around now. as for me, kdg2 aku nak kawin, kdg2 tak. tapi maybe aku prefer not now la. byk sgt commitment nyer nanti. cannot go there, cannot do this and that. kena jaga hati family sblh suami.. bla2... and most importantly, belum ada duit. believe it or not, even though gaji aku blh dikira byk compared to my peers, still cuma cukup2 makan jer. hardly ada extra for saving. maybe i will change my mind bila my boyfriend start working and pray tell when is that?

semalam aku, rush and boro officially sewa our first house together. diorg pernah sewa bilik before this but not a house. we gonna have our own room. if we are lucky the owner might agree to lend us their peti ais. ice box is so expensive over here. jatuh miskin aku nak pindah rumah ni. apa2 hal pun we are so very excited to move in the new house.

Got this from elly's , ehehehe... giler lawa gambar tuh... nak simpanla. aku suka buat quiz2 dari quizzila ni.



You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted, care-
free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You have
friends and most absolutely love you. You can
be calm and soothing one minute and ragging in
anger the next so no one wants to get on your
bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and
magical.


What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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Got this from Rush... read on...


The new Age women

In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the question "What kind of man are you looking for?"

She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye and asking "Do you really want to know?"

Reluctantly, he said "Yes."

She began to expound...

"As a woman in this day and age, I am in a position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can't do for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man...or woman for that matter.

I am in the position to ask, "What can you bring to the table?"

The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money.

She quickly corrected his thought and stated, "I am not referring to money.

"I need something more. I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life."

He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to explain.

She said,

"I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don't need a simple minded man.

I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually because I don't need to be unequally yoked... believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster.

I need a man who is striving for perfection financially because I don't need a financial burden.

I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded.

I am looking for someone who I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him.

I cannot be submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive...he just has to be worthy.

God made woman to be a help mate for man. I can't help a man if he can't help himself.

When she finished her spill, she looked at him. He sat there with a puzzled look on his face.

He said, "You are asking a lot."

She replied, "I'm worth a lot."

Send this to every woman who's worth a lot!

semalam gi pick up offer letter kat klcc & buat medical check-up. byk tul borang kena isi. entah apa2la... procedure nak masuk petronas tu lengthy giler. ari ni lepas hampir sebulan aku gi tender aku nyer resignation, dia ckp lak better takyah tender dulu sbb tak dpt lagi medical check-up result. ish... boleh tak kalau aku tension. kalau aku tak lepas medical check-up ni mmg marah betul la aku. gi bakar klcc tu sbb tak ckp camtu awal2. ingat senang ker nak carik keje skrg ni. entah apa2 ntah.

penat nyer nak meneruskan ari ni. feels like dipping myself in a pool or something. letihla den. ngantuk juga. tonite i'll have a small gathering with my atu1 batch. with yg ada di lembah klang la. can't wait to meet them. dah lama rasanyer tak hang out together. and tomorrow i'll hang out with my girl friends kat kl. nasib baik diorg bagitau yg diorg nak gi lunch. kalau tak sure takleh nak join.

already... dah tak ngantuk sgt. so, gonna sambung buat keje.

aku gi browse2 blog deera and found one quiz which she did. and read this last paragraph

"To the extent that you are even implicitly aware of your hemispheric dominance and sensory style, you will feel most comfortable in those arenas which emphasize verbal skills and logic. Teaching, law, and science are those that stand out among the professions, along with technical sales and management. "

skrg ni aku keje as a technical sales.. ehehe.. kira sesuai la agaknyer keje aku ngan the way my brain works... and i am mildly left-hemisphere dominant.

My Brain Usage Profile

Auditory : 61%
Visual : 38%
Left : 61%
Right : 38%

ehehe... kira almost balance la brain usage kan...

today aku dgr yg rumah boro (rush's friend) ada bilik kosong. aku mmg suka giler kalau boleh tinggal ngan boro. iyerla.. dia pun lbh kurang cam aku. takderla aku risau kalau2 bilik tak sempat nak kemas or just simply malas nak kemas. and aku mmg don't believe in making my bed every morning. sbb katil tu tmpt tido kan, kalau kemas.. krg aku nak tido balik... sia2 jer kan? ehehhe.. anyways, since aku dah ckp kat satu rumah tu aku nak masuk bilik dia.. skrg ni aku trasa sungguh guilty nak cancel the room coz then dia kena carik org lain lak to occupy it... but then.. i really don't want to stay with strangers.... well.. we'll see what happen next.

by today still tak dpt tgk gothika lagik. last weekend tgk intolerable cruelty. aku dah agak dah citer tu sure sucks giler. ntah apa2 ntah citer. tapi itu jer citer yg paling menarik utk ditgk. tapi sbnrnya adik aku nak tgk kuliah cinta. maybe i should try that one of these days.

and last nite aku gi tgk rumah kat vista angkasa. master bedroom... for 210/month. ok kot. aku mmg mampu pun. so, taknak pk byk2. even though mahal sikit and rumah tu takder washing machine. kena tumpang rumah rush kot. tapi baik giler the housemate. dia kata takyah bagi deposit pun. masa aku masuk nanti aku bayar. masa tu aku takder duit pun. bila masuk rumah nanti sure byk giler kena spend. tensi... tensi...

bila baca balik entry2 yg sudah. mcm depress giler aku ni. maybe i am. so.. kali ni, aku nak try tulis something happier. what aa... think... think... obviously, takder mende yg aku boleh tulis.

anyways, sbb skrg ni aku tgh tunggu matde pun. better just write down something. lately ni aku selalu duduk and termenung pasal apa yg aku nak out of my life. what actually that i would like to do? pk punya pk... last2 aku find out yg aku tak tau apa yg aku nak. i couldn't make my mind. being rich would be great but that won't happen anytime soon unless i get married with someone super rich. working with petronas for 10 yrs won't make me rich either... but one thing that i know is that i don't want to spend the rest of my life working. at some point i just want to live life... but how am i suppose to do it when i don't know what i want?

so... maybe this is what people says, take it one at a time and take it easy. just grab whatever opportunity that comes our way and try to make the best out of it. Philosophical giler.... well... what to do...

this is not a very happy entry indeed. ehehehe... another confusion in jirah's small mind.

ehmmm.... aku trasa sungguh tensi pada saat ini. nak tido pun susah. don't know why this changing workplace really stressing me out. mcm2 la aku dgr. well, maybe i should keep it to myself in the first place so no one would know so that no one can give their comment so that i am not stress out. i also don't understand why i keep making mistakes. mistakes that i wish never happen. so, in the end.. to keep myself sane, i have to make a little bit adjustment on my perception to accept the way things are. normally that works. it works when i failed one of my classes in umich. it should work now.. i hope.

and to unstress myself, i think i'll watch gothika or go swimming. just do something that will get all these unwanted "maybes" clouded my mind. ohh... i just wish this month to be over with as quickly as possible.

kena marah lagi ari ni... apala nak jadi ngan aku ni. tension tul. masuk ni ntah dah brapa kali la aku buat silap. dahla buat silap yg boleh mengbankrapkan company. mesti boss aku suka giler bila aku dah tak keje sini krg. senang sikit kerja dia. sure lega jer dia.

anyways, today ada org baru masuk. bolehla tahan ke-cute-an nyer. and single some more. eheheh...