elly dah gi kelas... semua org pun dah gi kelas.. aku jer yg tgh duk melepak2... ehehe.. jgn jeles... bangun2 pagi tadi ingat nak gi ncrb.. nak pinjam card elly bila elly kuar pukul 10. tapi half-way jalan, aku terlupa nak bawak m-card nak swap ngan elly. kalau patah balik mmg tak sempat la... last2 aku balik main pool jer... sucks giler aku main. pukul straight pun tak masuk.. tension tul...

hopefully ptg ni tak ujan. boleh aku gi main rollerblade... semalam main, aku rasa dah cukup confident and boleh control the blade.. bila dah masuk spring ni... whether mmgla best.. tapi hidung,mata ngan kulit aku gatal2... tension ghell...

better aku sambung aku nyer tido balik..

last week ada 3 exams.. i was sooo stressed. tinggal satu jer exam next week. and that class aku amik pass/fail. so, takyah sungguh2 study pun takper. aku rasa aku dah biasa study habis2an bila sekolah nak abis. sbb tu la aku try gak nak dpt A for all my graded classes this sem, everything looks so good masa midterms... tapi after finals... aku tak taula camner. kalau aku masih sophomore or freshman aku sure tak kisah sgt. aku rasa aku ada that mentality sbb system blaja kat malaysia camtu. cuma PMR, SPM ngan UPSR jer yg penting. and those exams selalunyer by the end of the year... so, time tu la aku study bagai nak giler.. kalau setakat exams2 tgh tahun, aku buat tak reti jer... in fact, aku selalu dpt no 20 something in class. really cannot believe i can study here. maybe that is what we call a chance.

oh well... in two weeks i will be out of here... starting a new life... hopefully a much better life.. but, we never know. mcm org2 putih ckp, life is like a box of chocolate... and i forgot the rest... or mcm apa yg matde selalu ckp kat aku... hidup ni mcm roda, kejap kat atas, kejap kat bawah... aku tak paham napa he keeps saying that to me.... aku rasa dah cukup puas dah duduk kat sini. aku dpt buat semua benda yg aku nak buat... travelling, skiing, rollerblading, softball, volleyball kejap, main gamelan (buat show kat power center), naik rollercoaster, petik apple.. it's all good...

maybe balik mesia nanti aku nak blaja menembak or some martial art stuff... or dancing... for sure kena blaja bawak kete...

Rahsia Gadis Mengekalkan Keayaun
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Menjaga kejelitaan semulajadi (natural beauty) dengan tidak memakai bahan-bahan luaran tetapi menjaga emosi, fizikal dan mental. Gunakan masa untuk perkara yang berfaedah dan tentukan wawasan secara objektif, jangan banyak angan-angan. Tidur awal setiap malam dan bangun awal setiap pagi untuk solat subuh. Jangan tidur siang hari.

Menjaga suara. Latih diri bercakap dengan nada yang lembut, tidak sengau atau suaranya terlalu kuat.

Menjaga cara berkata-kata. Biasakan menggunakan perkataan yang melambangkan keluhuran budi seperti 'tolong' serta 'minta maaf'. Jangan gunakan perkataan yang terlalu beremosi seperti bosan, sakit hati, menyampah, benci dan sebagainya kerana ia akan menyebabkan muka jadi berkerut dan masam.

Menjaga kulit. Keebrsihan sentiasa dijaga. Makanan yang berupa ulam-ulam yang wangi serta sayuran dan buah-buahan segar patut selalu dimakan. Gunakan sabun yang tidak merosakkan kulit.

Menjaga muka. Tangan perlu sentiasa bersih dan lembut. Jangan gunakan bedak yang bukan-bukan.
Selalu menggunakan bedak sejuk untuk menjaga kulit muka. Jangan banyak berangan.

Menjaga rambut. Ia mahkota kejelitaan gadis. Bersihkan rambut tapi jangan terlalu kerap. Bila bersikat, ulangi sikatan ke seluruh bahagian kepala 100 kali untuk menjadikan rambut subur dan berkilat. Ramai lelaki suka pada gadis berambut panjang tapi kemas.

Menjaga cara berberjalan. Latih cara berjalan. Jauhi dari berjalan mengengkang atau tangan terlalu dihayun. Langkah jangan terlalu besar. Berjalan jangan terlalu laju. Badan jangan terlalu membongkok atau tegak. Leher jangan terteleng (senget sebelah). Muka elok ditundukkan sedikit.

Menjaga gerak-geri. Bila duduk di atas lantai duduklah dengan cara bersimpuh. Kalau duduk di atas kerusi, eloklah sila panggung. Jangan mengangkang. Tangan jangan terlalu digerakkan bila bercakap. Cara bergerak biarlah lemah-lembut.

Menjaga senyum. Latihlah senyum jangan tersengeh. Tutup mulut bila ketawa. Ketawa secara sederhana. Selalu senyum tapi untuk tujuan baik.

Menjaga mata. Mata janganlah terlalu liar memandang sekeliling. Tundukkan mata dan memandang hanya kepada apa yang sedang anda hadapi. Jangan terlalu kerap mengerdipkan mata. Usah terlalu kerap menjeling walaupun kepada buah hati anda.

Menjaga kehormatan. Sentiasa bertemankan ibu atau saudara bila keluar. Minta izin ibubapa. Pakaian sopan. Pulang seawal mungkin.

Menjaga sikap. Taat beragama. Jangan bohong. Jauhi dari merungut. Jauhi dari menjadi amat cerewet dan jaga hati orang lain.

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* Tamat *

got this from a friend....

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Choice and Chance...
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When we meet the right person to love when we're at the right place at the
right time, that's chance.
When you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a choice. That's chance.
Being caught up in a moment (and there's a lot of couples who get together
because of this) is not a choice. That's also a chance.

The difference is what happens afterwards.
When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction
to the next level?
That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want
to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling.

If you decide to love a person, even with his faults, that's not a chance.
That's choice.
When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that's choice. Even if you
know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and
richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same,
that's choice.

Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance. But true love that
lasts is truly a choice. A choice that we make.
Regarding soul mates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true
about this:
"Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen."

I do believe that soul mates do exist.
That there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the
choice if you're going to do something about it or not.
We may meet our soul mates by chance, but loving and staying with our soul mate
is still a choice we have to make.

We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love... BUT to learn how
to love an imperfect person perfectly...
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anger
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what makes a person angry?
is it even a valid emotion?
what is anger?
what do people feels when they are angry?
do they feels like punching other people? what if there is no one to hit?
will the heart beats faster?
why the face become so red sometime?
why as a human we need to experience anger?
i think a lot of bad things happen when people get mad. for example... couple breaking up. one country intrude another country. parents disown their own children. friends stop talking to another friend..
isn't life a lot more better if there is no anger in this world?

but, on the other hand, if somehow, we are being bullied or oppressed... then the anger will help us to stop them. we'll rise to the oppressor.
but, do we know what is a "good" and "bad" anger? should I be angry when I lost my room key because the room is too messy? to whom should I feel angry to? to the clothes on the floor? I'm the one that put it there. so, what should I do to mysefl now? scold myself? hit myself? punish myself so I can't watch that 70's show (classical conditioning) ?what good will it do?

---- only Allah knows why.....

lepakking days
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minggu ni mmg minggu membuang masa aku... tapi aku rasa, i need the rest. normally kalau aku dah buang masa byk sgt, aku nyer weekdays sure productive... malam khamis dah start hang out sbb bosan, tapi aku rasa start malam rabu pun.... then jumaat ptg, gi dinner ngan budak2 eecs ( graduation party). balik dalam pukul 10.30 , lepak ngan apu, elly, hafiz lak sampai pukul 2 kot...tido pukul 4.30 and bangun pukul 4.30 ptg. then hasdi buat house warming, lepak kat rumah hasdi dari pukul 5 sampai pukul 10.30. pastu lepak ngan elly, hafiz, hakam and bob sampai pukul 2/3 lebih.... esok paginyer pegi rumah mehrun bersama liza...do some girly stuff... sampai pukul 4.30.. and finally at 5.15 makan kat rumah bob with some other guys untill 12.15... damn... byk giler lepak... tapi aku nak balik malaysia pun. might as well spend as much time as possible with these guys... nanti dah susah nak hang out camni lagik... and maybe tak dpt nak mengutuk each other depan2 lagi after this...

already... need to make an outline for my psycho paper.

semalam jumpa sofia.. masa ckp2 pasal nak carik suit kat mana yg murah, tiba2 aku find out yg dia pun budak BBGS gak... damn... tak sangka lak. dahla dia duduk dekat ngan asrama aku. aku SPM 97, sofia SPM 96. then aku 5S2, sofia 5S1. camnerla aku boleh tak prasan sofia... maybe i did, but eventually forgot about it. then gi rumah bob, spank the monkey sat, main bowling sat, then tgk two weeks notice. cool gak la that movie... as usual, i love those kind of movies... romantic movies... i can watch that kind of movies over and over and over again... citer my best friend wedding pun dah tgk berapa puluh kali... selalunyer kalau julia robert, drew berrymore, sandra bullocks and this one actress that i cannot remember her name berlakon, sure best nyer...

hidup ni trasa sungguh kelakar... kdg2 aku rasa seronok... kdg2 rasa sucks giler... kdg2 trasa mcm nak jadi giler... yg peliknyer aku baru jer bersukaria ngan member2 aku tadik... napa lak tiba2 aku rasa tak best ni? nak kata sbb programming, almost done. nak kata pasal balak.. balak jauh beribu batu.... so, mmg takder kena mengena.. maybe aku homesick sikit2 kot. last year, aku homesick since aku balik sini sampaila aku balik malaysia lagi sekali... this year ok sikit.. maybe sbb aku takyah pk pasal sapa2... aku kena risau pasal diri sendiri jer.. i'm sure gonna miss this "doesn't care about anybody else but myself" feeling... bak kata rush, kena pandai jaga diri sendiri... don't let people hurt your feelings.. not that i'm hurt.. just saying..... ermm.. this ramblings can go on and on and on... so, i'm gonna stop here...

skrg ni.. bukak blog semua org, mesti kuar bunyi... aku nyer blog jer takder bunyi... dahla lay out sucks... tapi since aku malas nak tambah benda2 tu semua... aku biar jerla aku nyer blog as simple as it is.... semalam terlepas tgk that 70's show sbb buat programming. hopefully today aku tak terlupa lagi sbb ada will & grace and friends yg baru... suka giler tgk sitcom, bila kat malaysia krg sure tak leh nak tgk selalu.. unless ada astro or something..

semalam tgk confession of a dangerous mind. kinda dissappointed sbb julia robert kuar 5 minite jer... goerge clooney pun takder tunjukkan dia nyer charisma sgt... tapi all in all, aku rasa citer dia not that bad. it's kinda unique... kinda... sorta.. so, skrg i'm looking forward to watch punch drunk love and spy kid 2.

aku nak
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aku nak jam baru..
aku nak perfume isimiyaki ( tak sure eja tul tak )
aku nak satu suit baru for interview..
aku nak makan ikan merah yg digoreng
aku nak diamond ring
aku nak high heel baru
aku nak crystals...

dalam kelas psycho, cikgu aku ckp, kalau kita amik 2 groups, satu group suruh list down 6 reasons why u love your significant other, and satu lagi group list down 12 reasons why u love your significant other. and after that, tanya balik those people samada dia betul2 satisfied with the partner. the result is, group yg kena list down 6 reaons is more satisfied with his/her partner... sbb kalau kita try carik more reasons kenapa kita suka balak/awek kita than the ones that we know... kita akan start rasa yg kita tak satisfied with him/her...