Wednesday, April 08, 2009
Semalam aku sangat stress pasal keja. Kenapala fukup sgt keja aku ni? Apa yg aku buat semua tak menjadi. Sakit kepala aku dibuat nyer. Aku rasa kena tuka keja la. Tak dapat eden nak menganggung masalah yg tak berenti2 ni. Takkanla semua lesson learnt. Ya Allah, aku rasa masalah ini terlalu berat untuk ku tanggung. Kepadamu ku sembah dan kepadamu aku meminta pertolongan. Bantulah hamba mu yg didalam kesempitan ini. Amin.....
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Minggu lepas and minggu2 yg sudah aku tersgt tension sampai tak lalu mkn n all. I whine and whine non stop. Rasa sgt tertekan ngan keja. Pastu aku dok baca blog org n diorg pun stress ngan keja gak. So, aku buat kesimpulan takder keja dlm dunia ni yg tak buat ok stress. Duk rumah jaga anak pun stress gak. So, buat jerla tak tau. Maybe aku extra stress sbb kat tmpt keja Performance eval time. N I know I'm not doing too well. I worked very hard but still cannot perform. How frustrating. Tak tau dah nak buat camner. Ngan boss yg tak reti2 bagi direction, pastu terkapai2 la aku keseorangan. Ntahler tapi bila dipikir2 kan aku ni takla malang sgt. Ada jer yg lagi malang. Paling teruk pun, tahun ni takder increment n bonus. At least I still got a job. Betul tak? My boss said all these will make me stronger. Will see if this will make me or brake me. Either way, I don't want to care.....
Sunday, March 22, 2009
I'm so stressed! It's showing on my body. I never smile anymore, Im getting thinner and my temper has gotten shorter n shorter. Sometimes I think I'm even neglecting my son. My hubby has his own way of occupying his time. So, not worry too much on him. It's just that lately aku asyik cari reason nak marah dia. He is a very2 nice person n now dia tak f*** up, it's getting more n more difficult to be angry at him.
Arghh stress nyer......
Arghh stress nyer......
Friday, March 13, 2009
Facebook is so much fun. There were people esp from high school that I thought I could never get in touch, but thanks to facebook, I can contact them again. Seeing old pictures, oh, how I missed my dorm n the people in it. Cikgu2 nyer juga. Dah tinnggalkan sekolah more than 10 years now. Mostly dah ada family n career. I think we grew up well. Mlm tadi Aiman terjaga tgh mlm, rasa mcm nak sambung tido jer. Dahla hujan2 ni. Boss bsr kata nak amik cuti. Hehe
Sunday, March 01, 2009
am trying to post my son's pix but i guess the pixel is too large and i dont know how to scale it down. anyhow, maybe will try to do that later. recently gotten myself a facebook id. not so many friends yet. but i actually got hooked to it. everyday will be checking what are they saying and all... luckily i got a free wifi in my room. most prob one of our neighbor's have wifi. hehe... lucky me. otherwise have to buy one myself.
my son is growing very well. everyday is such a blessing. whatever he does makes us so delighted. when he starts to sit on his own, walk, jump, run, say all those small things like abah, makan, nak, tu... every single things that he does makes us soo happy. :)
my mother is also looking much much better. i'm glad i encourage her to do chemo and radio despite some of our relative's comment on chemo. yup, we do hear scary stories about chemo. but she is holding very very well... and i am very grateful on that. alhamdullilah, the effect is not as bad. she is eating well.
my son is growing very well. everyday is such a blessing. whatever he does makes us so delighted. when he starts to sit on his own, walk, jump, run, say all those small things like abah, makan, nak, tu... every single things that he does makes us soo happy. :)
my mother is also looking much much better. i'm glad i encourage her to do chemo and radio despite some of our relative's comment on chemo. yup, we do hear scary stories about chemo. but she is holding very very well... and i am very grateful on that. alhamdullilah, the effect is not as bad. she is eating well.
Friday, February 20, 2009
what does it mean to be independent? Is it the ability to do things on your own. Does not need help from others? As I grow older I find it more and more difficult to be independent. I surely cannot go to work, earn money and at the same time stay home and take care of my son. I still need help from others to take care of my son. Does this mean I'm less independent? And at work, it's impossible for me to work in silo. I have to ask peole for help to get a certain job done. I think if I truly want to be an independent person I should be a very succesful painter. I don't have to leave home. My work does not depend on others. And I can paint when my son at school or taking his nap. Yeah, not everyone can be a painter. Let alone a successful one. Good luck to me :)
Monday, January 12, 2009
i was suppose to start putting up an article in this blog. but since i am too busy watching dramas, i cannot find the time to do it yet. at this moment, i already have two topics, am thinking about the third topic.. what is the point of having these topics if i cannot start right?
anyhow, recently i have been spending beyond my means. this is the third month that i cannot settle my credit card debt. i really need to start cutting down on my expenses. have been treating myself to good food and spas lately. need to put a stop to it. aiman's susu consumption also has increased. takkanla nak cut down on that right? so, the only way to do it is by living like i use to like last time, no shopping, no eating out... no fun... maybe i can ask my hubby to buy me things next time. he is living on a 400 allowance. but i cannot compare that with me when i have so many responsibilities. i guess this is not the place to vent my frustration on my spending habit or why everything is so expensive in Malaysia.
maybe i should migrate to US. hehe... and they are also in huge trouble now. economy is not doing very good...
anyhow, recently i have been spending beyond my means. this is the third month that i cannot settle my credit card debt. i really need to start cutting down on my expenses. have been treating myself to good food and spas lately. need to put a stop to it. aiman's susu consumption also has increased. takkanla nak cut down on that right? so, the only way to do it is by living like i use to like last time, no shopping, no eating out... no fun... maybe i can ask my hubby to buy me things next time. he is living on a 400 allowance. but i cannot compare that with me when i have so many responsibilities. i guess this is not the place to vent my frustration on my spending habit or why everything is so expensive in Malaysia.
maybe i should migrate to US. hehe... and they are also in huge trouble now. economy is not doing very good...
Sunday, January 04, 2009
happy new year. I am officially 29 years old. Last year I was too busy with Aiman that
I was totally forgotten to make a resolution. This year I can concentrate a little bit more on myself. This year I did came up with a resolution. Actually two. The first is to write meaningful material in this blog. Two is to swim once a week. I'm still thinking a good topic to write about.
I was totally forgotten to make a resolution. This year I can concentrate a little bit more on myself. This year I did came up with a resolution. Actually two. The first is to write meaningful material in this blog. Two is to swim once a week. I'm still thinking a good topic to write about.
Friday, December 26, 2008
next Thursday will be my 29th birthday. This year I'm thinking of pampering myself. First i'll do manicure pedicure, then massage. Later if not yet bored thinking of getting some facial. Then go swim. God, it has been like ages since the last time went swimming. Also asked matde to buy me some present. Hehe, selalunyer aku mintak duit jer. Aku suka pakai kebaya, so ask for keronsang. I have a set but it is too flamboyant. I want something simpler but nice.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Friday, December 12, 2008
Friday, November 21, 2008
Interesting quote from the movie 'Why did I get married?'
In most cases, especially in relationships, you will only get 80% of what you NEED and you will hardly get the other 20% that you WANT in your relationship. There is always another person (man or women) that you will meet and that will offer you the other 20% which is lacking in your relationship that you WANT And believe me, 20% looks really good when you are not getting it at all in your current relationship.
But the problem is that you will always be tempted to leave that good 80% that you know you have, thinking that you will get something better with the other 20% that you WANT
But as reality has proven, in most cases, you will always end up with having the 20% that you WANT and loosing the 80% that you really NEED and that you already had.
Be careful in deciding between what you WANT and NEED in your life.
Adultery happens when you start looking for what you don't have. 'Wow, this girl in my office is a real looker. But it's not her Wynona Rider features that got me. I'm crazy about her because she's also understanding, intelligent, tender - so many things that my spouse is not'
Somewhere along the way, you'll find a woman or a man who will be more charming or sensitive. More alluring. More thoughtful. Richer. Have greater sex appeal. And you will find a woman or man who will need you and pursue you and go loco over you more than your spouse ever did.
Because no wife or husband is perfect. Because a spouse will only have 80% of what you're looking for. So adultery takes place when a husband or wife looks for the missing 20%. Let's say your wife is melancholic by nature.
You may find yourself drawn to the pretty clerk who has a cherry laugh no matter what she says: 'I broke my arm yes terday, Hahahaha . . ..'
Or because your wife is a homebody in slippers and pajamas, smelling of garlic and fish oil, you may fall for a fresh-smelling young sales representative that visits your office in a sharp black blazer, high heels, and a red pencil-cut skirt Or because your husband is the quiet
type, your heart may skip a beat when you meet an old college flame who has the makings of a talk show host.
But wait! That's only 20% of what you don't have.
Don't throw away the 80% that you already have!
That's not all. Add to your spouse's 80% the 100% that represents all the years that you have been with each other. The storms you have weathered together. The unforgettable moments of sadness and joy as a couple. The many adjustments you have made to love the other. The wealth of memories that you've accumulated as lovers.
Adultery happens when you start looking for what you don't have.
But faithfulness happens when you st art thanking God for what you already have.
But I'm not just talking about marriage.
I'm talking about life!
About your jobs.
About your friends.
About your children.
About your lifestyles.
Are you like the economy airline passenger that perennially peeks through the door of the first class cabin, obsessed with what he's missing? 'They have got more leg room! Oh my, their food is served in porcelain! Wow, their seats recline at an 80% angle and they've got personal videos!'
I guarantee you'll be miserable for the entire trip! Don't live your life like that. Forget about what the world says is first class. Do you know that there are many first class passengers who are miserable in first class -- because they are not riding in a private Lear Jet?
The main message???
If you start appreciating what you have right now, wherever you are, you are first class!
In most cases, especially in relationships, you will only get 80% of what you NEED and you will hardly get the other 20% that you WANT in your relationship. There is always another person (man or women) that you will meet and that will offer you the other 20% which is lacking in your relationship that you WANT And believe me, 20% looks really good when you are not getting it at all in your current relationship.
But the problem is that you will always be tempted to leave that good 80% that you know you have, thinking that you will get something better with the other 20% that you WANT
But as reality has proven, in most cases, you will always end up with having the 20% that you WANT and loosing the 80% that you really NEED and that you already had.
Be careful in deciding between what you WANT and NEED in your life.
Adultery happens when you start looking for what you don't have. 'Wow, this girl in my office is a real looker. But it's not her Wynona Rider features that got me. I'm crazy about her because she's also understanding, intelligent, tender - so many things that my spouse is not'
Somewhere along the way, you'll find a woman or a man who will be more charming or sensitive. More alluring. More thoughtful. Richer. Have greater sex appeal. And you will find a woman or man who will need you and pursue you and go loco over you more than your spouse ever did.
Because no wife or husband is perfect. Because a spouse will only have 80% of what you're looking for. So adultery takes place when a husband or wife looks for the missing 20%. Let's say your wife is melancholic by nature.
You may find yourself drawn to the pretty clerk who has a cherry laugh no matter what she says: 'I broke my arm yes terday, Hahahaha . . ..'
Or because your wife is a homebody in slippers and pajamas, smelling of garlic and fish oil, you may fall for a fresh-smelling young sales representative that visits your office in a sharp black blazer, high heels, and a red pencil-cut skirt Or because your husband is the quiet
type, your heart may skip a beat when you meet an old college flame who has the makings of a talk show host.
But wait! That's only 20% of what you don't have.
Don't throw away the 80% that you already have!
That's not all. Add to your spouse's 80% the 100% that represents all the years that you have been with each other. The storms you have weathered together. The unforgettable moments of sadness and joy as a couple. The many adjustments you have made to love the other. The wealth of memories that you've accumulated as lovers.
Adultery happens when you start looking for what you don't have.
But faithfulness happens when you st art thanking God for what you already have.
But I'm not just talking about marriage.
I'm talking about life!
About your jobs.
About your friends.
About your children.
About your lifestyles.
Are you like the economy airline passenger that perennially peeks through the door of the first class cabin, obsessed with what he's missing? 'They have got more leg room! Oh my, their food is served in porcelain! Wow, their seats recline at an 80% angle and they've got personal videos!'
I guarantee you'll be miserable for the entire trip! Don't live your life like that. Forget about what the world says is first class. Do you know that there are many first class passengers who are miserable in first class -- because they are not riding in a private Lear Jet?
The main message???
If you start appreciating what you have right now, wherever you are, you are first class!
Thursday, November 20, 2008
this month i have no plan to go on any biz trips.
lately i dont feel like travelling at all. all i want to do is stay at home with my son. well... hubby is always like that regardless of school holidays or nor school holidays. so, he is not affected by not having me around.
anyways, i have a new task at work and am really liking it. most of my colleague see me as an aggressive person. at some point this is quite correct. all i want is to get my job done. also, i would really like to polish my writing skills. i hate to do presentation. i'm so terrible at it. but that's the best way to promote yourself to the bosses. heck, i dont give a damn about it anymore.
if i feel like not doing this anymore, i will just try look for other opportunity. i think i dont mind being an executive forever. at at this moment la.
lately i dont feel like travelling at all. all i want to do is stay at home with my son. well... hubby is always like that regardless of school holidays or nor school holidays. so, he is not affected by not having me around.
anyways, i have a new task at work and am really liking it. most of my colleague see me as an aggressive person. at some point this is quite correct. all i want is to get my job done. also, i would really like to polish my writing skills. i hate to do presentation. i'm so terrible at it. but that's the best way to promote yourself to the bosses. heck, i dont give a damn about it anymore.
if i feel like not doing this anymore, i will just try look for other opportunity. i think i dont mind being an executive forever. at at this moment la.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
today my 2nd day in spore this month
everytime i went on a trip, there's always a part of my breast that got engorged
not sure why this happen. i think i pump out the milk inefficiently that some was left out
i just hate it. it really hurts and i just have to pump it out
i'm using manual pump now. the electrical suction was so weak....
i'm aiming for medela PISA or freestyle for my next baby
my hubby thinks that it is such a waste of money to buy breast pump and all because he thinks i am a very lazy person. dont think i will be committed to pump all the time.
i think he is right... as much as i hate it, have to admit that he is always rational and he thinks before he does things. so glad to have someone so rational to handle the irrational me.
everytime i went on a trip, there's always a part of my breast that got engorged
not sure why this happen. i think i pump out the milk inefficiently that some was left out
i just hate it. it really hurts and i just have to pump it out
i'm using manual pump now. the electrical suction was so weak....
i'm aiming for medela PISA or freestyle for my next baby
my hubby thinks that it is such a waste of money to buy breast pump and all because he thinks i am a very lazy person. dont think i will be committed to pump all the time.
i think he is right... as much as i hate it, have to admit that he is always rational and he thinks before he does things. so glad to have someone so rational to handle the irrational me.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
lately all my thoughts centered around my workplace
somehow i have this feeling that it's getting out of hand
i dont know what i'm doing anymore. my relationship with my boss not very good
most of the time i feel i am at loss
i hate to just give up. it doesnt feel right to give up
i like my job. i like talking to people and the occasional travelling
but the resposibility is just killing me
have to make money all the time. that's what marketing all about
and i've been spending a lot lately. it has gone to 3 digits now
it feels so good to spend. everytime i'm stress at work
i go to salon and pamper myself or buy myself very very expensive things
the latest splurge was on my moisturizer and powder. i dont have pimple problem
and yet i want to buy something very expensive on myself
so, without thinking, i went in to MAC and just bought it
god... i really should put a brake on this pampering myself thingy.
i also started to pay a little bit more attention on myself.
before raya i went to do my hair. it was very expensive... yesterday i went for facial for the very first time. planning to do nails next
definitely has to start buying shoes/sandals again.
i always wanted another baby. mainly because it is such a great distraction on my career.
but matde say no and this time he put it as "i dont think u can handle two crying babies in a car or in a mall by yourself. you know i will be very busy and u will definitely take your children anywhere even by yourself". that is so much truth in it that i think i should at least wait until he is less busy or got pregnant during his senior year.
that's why never got married with a student. i have to be very independent. last weekend i went to Banting by myself because my husband got an exam. my baby cried for 15 minutes without stopping while trying his hardest to get out of his seat. i was so scared he is going get seizure. luckily somehow i manage to calm him down and he went straight to sleep.
somehow i have this feeling that it's getting out of hand
i dont know what i'm doing anymore. my relationship with my boss not very good
most of the time i feel i am at loss
i hate to just give up. it doesnt feel right to give up
i like my job. i like talking to people and the occasional travelling
but the resposibility is just killing me
have to make money all the time. that's what marketing all about
and i've been spending a lot lately. it has gone to 3 digits now
it feels so good to spend. everytime i'm stress at work
i go to salon and pamper myself or buy myself very very expensive things
the latest splurge was on my moisturizer and powder. i dont have pimple problem
and yet i want to buy something very expensive on myself
so, without thinking, i went in to MAC and just bought it
god... i really should put a brake on this pampering myself thingy.
i also started to pay a little bit more attention on myself.
before raya i went to do my hair. it was very expensive... yesterday i went for facial for the very first time. planning to do nails next
definitely has to start buying shoes/sandals again.
i always wanted another baby. mainly because it is such a great distraction on my career.
but matde say no and this time he put it as "i dont think u can handle two crying babies in a car or in a mall by yourself. you know i will be very busy and u will definitely take your children anywhere even by yourself". that is so much truth in it that i think i should at least wait until he is less busy or got pregnant during his senior year.
that's why never got married with a student. i have to be very independent. last weekend i went to Banting by myself because my husband got an exam. my baby cried for 15 minutes without stopping while trying his hardest to get out of his seat. i was so scared he is going get seizure. luckily somehow i manage to calm him down and he went straight to sleep.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
after thinking a little bit harder last night
i figured out that i should start making myself a little bit happier by start spending
i am not a shopping kinda person. shopping during sales repels me.
queue too long, it's takes forever to try on clothes.
so, what i'm going to do next is shop whenever it's convenient and affordable
no matter whether it's a sale or not
i dont really follow fashion. so i can wear without guilty a blouse that i bought 10 years ago
my sister gave me this long skirt. it looks very old. but i like it so much that i still wear it
i asked my hubby once if he is bothered that i wear horrible outfit to work or shopping
he doesnt. so, that solve my non-shopping for clothes problem
i am more like my dad. we will simply buy whatever that we think can make our live a little easier. when i was single, i even send my clothes for pressing. dont mind paying a buck for each cloth. i'm so glad i figured that out. i'm also happy yesterday i got the chance to cut my hair short.
i've been meaning to cut my hair since last month but i simply dont have the time. one more thing that i should do is to save some money in a bank. i lovveee to save and i will actually smile when i see some of my money saved. if i cannot put aside 200, i should start with 50. as long as i am saving, i should be happy. i really hate to think that at 28, with a good job and a family, i still cannot do the things that i love. i will start with doing these small things.
i figured out that i should start making myself a little bit happier by start spending
i am not a shopping kinda person. shopping during sales repels me.
queue too long, it's takes forever to try on clothes.
so, what i'm going to do next is shop whenever it's convenient and affordable
no matter whether it's a sale or not
i dont really follow fashion. so i can wear without guilty a blouse that i bought 10 years ago
my sister gave me this long skirt. it looks very old. but i like it so much that i still wear it
i asked my hubby once if he is bothered that i wear horrible outfit to work or shopping
he doesnt. so, that solve my non-shopping for clothes problem
i am more like my dad. we will simply buy whatever that we think can make our live a little easier. when i was single, i even send my clothes for pressing. dont mind paying a buck for each cloth. i'm so glad i figured that out. i'm also happy yesterday i got the chance to cut my hair short.
i've been meaning to cut my hair since last month but i simply dont have the time. one more thing that i should do is to save some money in a bank. i lovveee to save and i will actually smile when i see some of my money saved. if i cannot put aside 200, i should start with 50. as long as i am saving, i should be happy. i really hate to think that at 28, with a good job and a family, i still cannot do the things that i love. i will start with doing these small things.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
since i watched Randy Pausch last lecture, i've been thinking hard about what i really want to do with my life. what is it that makes me happy
do i want to work my ass off for the rest of my life?
do i want to stay home and take care of my kids at home?
what is it that will make me truly happy and be satisfied with my life
i dont want to wager my happiness on my children nor my husband
i think it is too risky and what if they did not turn out to be what i wanted them to be?
will i be miserable forever? will i not be happy?
i need to do something for myself.
this cannot be base on someone else.
it has to be about me
when i was a kid, strangely my dream was to be a maid. i enjoy cleaning up my house so much
it's a mindless job and somehow i really liked it
then when i get a little older, i enjoy teaching people. i teach a lot when i was in high school. people basically queue up to ask questions from me. the other smart people has gone to better school. it gave me great satisfaction to see people that i taught do a little bit better in school
and i also enjoy teaching small kids. so, i think i would like to teach in kindergarten.
at least they are not rude. even if they acting up, they still looks very cute
these two dream jobs are easy to get but they pay really really low.
my current job eventhough at times can be extremely stressful, the pay is good and the office hour is somewhat negotiable. i can easily go to work late or take leave whenever i have emergency
and with a baby, this is happening quite regularly
realistically, i shouldnt quite my job as yet
even how stressful it is.. even if the boss hates me(i think).
maybe what is should do now is find a distraction
maybe a hobby will occupy my head from all these thoughts
even though i think i am not truly happy, i am still blessed to have such cute kid and a loving husband.
do i want to work my ass off for the rest of my life?
do i want to stay home and take care of my kids at home?
what is it that will make me truly happy and be satisfied with my life
i dont want to wager my happiness on my children nor my husband
i think it is too risky and what if they did not turn out to be what i wanted them to be?
will i be miserable forever? will i not be happy?
i need to do something for myself.
this cannot be base on someone else.
it has to be about me
when i was a kid, strangely my dream was to be a maid. i enjoy cleaning up my house so much
it's a mindless job and somehow i really liked it
then when i get a little older, i enjoy teaching people. i teach a lot when i was in high school. people basically queue up to ask questions from me. the other smart people has gone to better school. it gave me great satisfaction to see people that i taught do a little bit better in school
and i also enjoy teaching small kids. so, i think i would like to teach in kindergarten.
at least they are not rude. even if they acting up, they still looks very cute
these two dream jobs are easy to get but they pay really really low.
my current job eventhough at times can be extremely stressful, the pay is good and the office hour is somewhat negotiable. i can easily go to work late or take leave whenever i have emergency
and with a baby, this is happening quite regularly
realistically, i shouldnt quite my job as yet
even how stressful it is.. even if the boss hates me(i think).
maybe what is should do now is find a distraction
maybe a hobby will occupy my head from all these thoughts
even though i think i am not truly happy, i am still blessed to have such cute kid and a loving husband.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
at this moment, i have two bosses.
one boss doesnt trust me, always think i have different agenda. fine, i always get this before. last time my senior think i'm stupid and will never do whatever i'm doing now. fine. last time my other boss think i always find excusess and always lied to him. fine. think whatever u want to think. i couldnt be bothered. why these people thinks so high of themselve and also looks down on people? by the way, all these are men. why they need to feed their ego that they are sooo much better than me? ok, i admit sometimes i can say stupid things, i can do even stupidier stuff... so, what? that's my character. why cant they guide me. instead of saying i'm not playing favorite. hello.... if u said that, meaning u realize that u are playing favorite and hoping other's not to see it. every time i think about it, i feels so angry. they act like they are so perfect. like there's nothing wrong with them....
arrgggghhhh.... if i dont think about my family and what can happen if i lost this job. i think i just show them my middle finger, storm out of the room, slammed the door and never come back.
like ashton kutcher said to cameron diaz in What Happen In Vegas "I would rather be happy doing nothing than be miserable doing what i hate".
one boss doesnt trust me, always think i have different agenda. fine, i always get this before. last time my senior think i'm stupid and will never do whatever i'm doing now. fine. last time my other boss think i always find excusess and always lied to him. fine. think whatever u want to think. i couldnt be bothered. why these people thinks so high of themselve and also looks down on people? by the way, all these are men. why they need to feed their ego that they are sooo much better than me? ok, i admit sometimes i can say stupid things, i can do even stupidier stuff... so, what? that's my character. why cant they guide me. instead of saying i'm not playing favorite. hello.... if u said that, meaning u realize that u are playing favorite and hoping other's not to see it. every time i think about it, i feels so angry. they act like they are so perfect. like there's nothing wrong with them....
arrgggghhhh.... if i dont think about my family and what can happen if i lost this job. i think i just show them my middle finger, storm out of the room, slammed the door and never come back.
like ashton kutcher said to cameron diaz in What Happen In Vegas "I would rather be happy doing nothing than be miserable doing what i hate".
Saturday, June 28, 2008
i'm very excited... now 2 of my closest friends dah ada baby... so nanti kalau nak lepak2 tak rasa awkward to bawak baby sama
and i'm also very happy sbb most of colleague kata aku dah kurus. walaupun perut still agak buncit coz aku malas nak pakai bengkung after pantang
but i'm a little bit down coz something happen in the office. and my boss is scaring the hell out of me. and now i have to be more patient in the office. jgn pandai2 buat apa2. LOA is very important. it's ok not to do anything as long as you are not doing the wrong thing.
it's safer to not try to be a hero. i notice that is how my manager takes things in the office
and the sad thing is, he is still a manager after all this years...
and i just realize how important this job is to me and my family
just imagine what will happen if one day i got sacked? i'm the breadwinner.
even though i dont really buy things for myself. i need to distribute my money to all my family members.
oh... i am still breastfeeding at night and in the morning. and express breastmilk after lunch hour. i'm targeting till aiman 1 year old before totally stop expressing the breastmilk and just give formula. and targeting for aiman at least one and half year old to totally stop breastfeeding him... after taht... hopefully my hubby give the ok sign of having another one... it's weird.. i complaint non-stop when i was pregnant. i complaint more when aiman was born. and i still cannot forget the pain delivering him and how painful it was after it coz i pushed too hard. but after all that, i still want another cute little baby. penat camner pun, how stress i was about work, i still can push it away when i hear and see aiman laugh... :)
and just because of that, i dont mind going through all those process again....
thank you hubby for being there for me and be patient during those times... not all men can take it
and i'm also very happy sbb most of colleague kata aku dah kurus. walaupun perut still agak buncit coz aku malas nak pakai bengkung after pantang
but i'm a little bit down coz something happen in the office. and my boss is scaring the hell out of me. and now i have to be more patient in the office. jgn pandai2 buat apa2. LOA is very important. it's ok not to do anything as long as you are not doing the wrong thing.
it's safer to not try to be a hero. i notice that is how my manager takes things in the office
and the sad thing is, he is still a manager after all this years...
and i just realize how important this job is to me and my family
just imagine what will happen if one day i got sacked? i'm the breadwinner.
even though i dont really buy things for myself. i need to distribute my money to all my family members.
oh... i am still breastfeeding at night and in the morning. and express breastmilk after lunch hour. i'm targeting till aiman 1 year old before totally stop expressing the breastmilk and just give formula. and targeting for aiman at least one and half year old to totally stop breastfeeding him... after taht... hopefully my hubby give the ok sign of having another one... it's weird.. i complaint non-stop when i was pregnant. i complaint more when aiman was born. and i still cannot forget the pain delivering him and how painful it was after it coz i pushed too hard. but after all that, i still want another cute little baby. penat camner pun, how stress i was about work, i still can push it away when i hear and see aiman laugh... :)
and just because of that, i dont mind going through all those process again....
thank you hubby for being there for me and be patient during those times... not all men can take it